Demons  

shychurchmouse 49F
418 posts
11/1/2005 12:44 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Demons


I have realized the longer you wait to face a demon, the more powerful it becomes. Unfortunely the longer you wait to face a demon, the more afraid you are; the more you dread the actual battle.
I already know the outcome of the battle. It has been predetermined. How many scars will I carry for the rest of my life? How many scars will only be superficial? How many scars will the demon leave on the people you love? How will your scars affect the people around you?
The weapons I will use to fight the demon are weak and flawed. However, they are the only weapons available to me.
I will face my battle wearing only a skimpy armor of protection proudly. Knowing that I am the one who is doing what is right and just.
I faced this demon before. He was way too powerful for me to deal with. I ran away and tried to forget the battle you had won and the scars you left behind. The scars emerged from time to time, yet I still tried to deny your presence. As the years went on, I only made the demon more powerful and me more ill-equipped to fight you. I gave you the ability to make me a coward and week.
As I face you again, I know this will not be the last time I or anyone else faces you. I only ask for the power to get through the battle and do what has to be done, to protect other innocent victims from your horror and pain, to keep the innocent just that, innocent.
Although the wounds you inflected were deep and may never completely heal, they were not fatal. I will come out of this battle scrapped, broken, and bruised, but I will hold my head up victoriously knowing I did what was right and just. I may not of left you weaponless, or destroyed you. I did however win, no matter how small the victory.
I crawl off now to lick my wounds to ready myself for the next battle.

I have been writing this blog for a month. This is about the a child molester and I felt the need to finish it and get some closure.

jajr11 52M

11/12/2005 7:24 pm

Sounds like this demon has been tagging along for awhile. I know that I personally, as does every Child of God, face the attacks of the evil one daily. However, and you know, this battle has already been won and we are victorious through the blood of Jesus Christ. I really enjoy putting on the full armor of God as He tells us and commands us to do. Read all about this in Ephesians 6:10-18. Keep working on this and I would like to hear from you soon.

jajr11


ShiesFlukyJulep 58M
23 posts
11/17/2005 3:27 am

Shy, you said "How many scars will I carry for the rest of my life? How many scars will only be superficial? How many scars will the demon leave on the people you love? How will your scars affect the people around you?"

I cannot say for you, as each of us have different strengths. I thought I was strong and had faced my demon, but learned three years ago that the deeply buried scars (that I thought were healed)had affected my relations with loved ones, friends, and my outlook on life. Hoepfully, the scars on my stepchildren are not so deep that they must go through the personal hell I did. I have not yet eradictaed the scars, and I find new ones that I had forgotten about, but I am getting better. I no longer look at every woman I see and try to get her in bed, I no longer try to turn every frindship with a woman into sex, and I am working on not picturing them having sex with me.

Just know you are not alone with that particular demon. and we do care about you as a person.


shychurchmouse 49F
239 posts
11/27/2005 2:11 am

Sorry not an easy blog to reply too. Thanks for reading and thanks for posting.


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