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shybutneedinit 47F
83 posts
8/15/2006 12:45 pm

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Family

So thought I would write about my family again.

My family consists of 5 of us, one brother, who is the oldest, followed by my sister, me, and two younger sisters. We all grew up in the care of the Children's Aid Society, except for the youngest, who got to stay with Mom.

Now for the longest time I resented this youngest child. Wanting to know my mother, wanting to be with her, etc etc. Now as I reflect, I am glad that I didn't live with her. You see my mom was an alcoholic. Drinking and boozing her life away. She died at the age of 35 in a house fire. They say she fell asleep on the porch with a ciggarette in her hand, after passing out.

Don't get me wrong.. knowing my mom would of been awesome, but being around an alcoholic is no picnic, this I know. I would probably be a very different person today, if I did reside with her. My youngest sister is messed up because of it. My mother and her, travelled alot, and not for good reasons. Because of alcoholism, they were evicted from places, and went from friends to friends houses... well inbetween men that is. My mother from what I understand, was desperate for love, and not a very strong woman. Now I don't know if what I hear about her is true at all, cause I wasn't there, and only hearing this second hand.

But back to my siblings. My brother is 39 and still boozing and drugging. Never really settling down in one place for long. I don't think he has ever had a place to call his own. Because of his mood swings and addictions, he gets fired from employment, and evicted or kicked out of friends places. Heck I don't even think he owns a thing, other than his clothes. Which is fine.. thats him, but I don't associate with him anymore. Last time I did, I ended up with my older sister and her 3 kids living with me, cause he kicked them out of a house that they decided to rent together. Go figure. My brother is also very abusive, mentally to me and my sisters. Mood swings that he has, have made all of us stay away from him. My youngest son has never met him, and he never will. I don't want my brother around me at all. I even moved so he couldn't find me. Yes its that bad.

Now my older sister is just as bad as him in regards to addictions. She is 38, Her own kids are in Children's aid now because of her actions. Just say she hasn't grown up either.

Now I am not saying I am perfect, cause trust me, no one is... especially not me. Everyone has their faults.

My younger sisters I don't know much about, to be honest, One lives in Windsor, and youngest her whereabouts are unknown.

So that is my immediate family in a nutshell.

Aren't u glad u not in my family lmao. I sure wish I wasn't some days... but you can't change your family. Got to deal with what you got. Well for healthier reasons, I decided not to deal with them at all. And I am thankful, that I got raised right, and didn't fall into addictions like they have. I am thankful for my 2 sons, and thankful each day, that I am happy and that they are safe.
I am trying to break the cycle that my family has gone through... its a struggle, but I am doing it!
Yay!! for me lol.




lissi888888 52F
1401 posts
8/16/2006 5:28 am

I agree shy...YEAH for you (and your kids ). We may struggle...but we are getting there all the same...and in the best way.



Lis


kagey24 55F
393 posts
8/17/2006 4:25 am

At least we can pick and choose our friends .. so sad we can't do that with some family members eh

Breaking the cycle is a great term to use ... I to am trying to do the same thing ... and it looks like I am succeeding at this point in time

Keep up the great work hun and you will succeed

Kissing is my kinda language
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Toronto BBW


fireman4u6945 55M

8/17/2006 7:39 am

Great attitude. I think that is what makes people what they are. You could sit around and blame your problems on your past, but life is short,no one said easy, so it is best to make the most of it. I am lucky, I never abused alchohol...my uncle was an alchoholic, so maybe that is why...who knows. Or maybe it is my two kids, who mean the world to me. We do the best we can..enjoy!!


shybutneedinit 47F

8/17/2006 6:21 pm

    Quoting lissi888888:
    I agree shy...YEAH for you (and your kids ). We may struggle...but we are getting there all the same...and in the best way.



    Lis
My kids are who I do everything for.. without them, I don't know who I would be.


shybutneedinit 47F

8/17/2006 6:22 pm

    Quoting kagey24:
    At least we can pick and choose our friends .. so sad we can't do that with some family members eh

    Breaking the cycle is a great term to use ... I to am trying to do the same thing ... and it looks like I am succeeding at this point in time

    Keep up the great work hun and you will succeed
yes breaking the cycle... learned that from growing up in care... but its so true... someone has to be the first one


shybutneedinit 47F

8/17/2006 6:26 pm

    Quoting fireman4u6945:
    Great attitude. I think that is what makes people what they are. You could sit around and blame your problems on your past, but life is short,no one said easy, so it is best to make the most of it. I am lucky, I never abused alchohol...my uncle was an alchoholic, so maybe that is why...who knows. Or maybe it is my two kids, who mean the world to me. We do the best we can..enjoy!!
thx for your comment. Doing the best we can, is all we can do!


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