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Haven't posted for a bit. Been busy with Xmas shopping and all that. Just kinda feel like ranting and raving.
The holidays have lost their magic. I feel more inadequate and small this time of year. It doesn't help that my wife passed away during this time also. That just adds to the blackness. Family and friends mean well my inviting me over. I put on my best smile and wade through it. I really would rather stay home in bed cuddling my dog. But I don't. I go thought the motions of enjoying myself because life has to move forward.
What is it with all these damn jewelry commercials??! They show guy's or a santa buying these huge, honking rings for their girls. The women are Ohhing and Ahhing and creaming their panties. Those commercials make me feel cheap and inadequate because I can't afford to spend 7G's on a ring. I don't know if it's me or capitalistic America which needs the reality check. Guess I'm turning into a liberal. Funny, I used to be a staunch Republican. Now corporate America sickens me. Executive's giving themselves 30% raise each year while outsourcing jobs to other countries. It's just a bunch of bullshit. I could keep going on about prescription drugs ,illegal stock trading and other white collar crime.
Decided to renew my membership here at AdultFriendFinder. Probably another $35 down the drain. I knew I stood a better chance at winning the NYS lottery than hooking here. I'm getting real suspicious that a lot of phonies are placing ad's. Incomplete profiles, almost exact word for word profiles, etc, etc. In all fairness there have been some real women. They have a least taken the time to reject me easily. No one likes to be turn down but at least I have a lot more respect for those who say "Thanks but no thanks" than those who don't respond at all.
My biggest peeves are people who say that want a discreet relationship, but when you contact them they try to rip you a new asshole because they want a serious relationship. Well, what does a discreet relationship mean to them? The dictionary say discretion is to act secretive. There is nothing wrong with wanting a serious relationship but if that's what you want, SAY SO IN YOUR PROFILE. Hell, I don't want to waste my time either.
I know I'm vastly outnumbered here. I'm sure a girl gets hundred's of replies from dick waving guys. And the girls can afford to be choosy and pick the guy of their fantasy.
I guess I can only increase my chances by continuing as I am. Hey, if any of the women out there want to offer me some pointers I'm game. Looks like I could use a little help.