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up and down
up and down
started on a high today, cruised along for a while, enjoyed the ride, then, self doubt set in again... why the fuck do I always undersell myself when I KNOW exactly what I;m capable of? I;m NOT backward, ( not much anyway lol) have pulled off some major shit recently and confirmed I HAD the balls to do it, but NOW...speed wobbles galore, I'm upfront, I lay my cards on the table, show that I;m willing to adapt, wtf more can I do?
Not honest to the point of brutality, I WILL cover my tracks to a certain extent, but generally, MOSTLY you will see that I mean no harm, and that anything I say takes into account circumstances at the time. By the way, I know what I type is reading in a very random fashion, but today, I;ve focussed enough and I need to be a bit random...so if this is giving you palpitations reading it, STOP... and go and do something useful instead.
I;ve got too much to deal with, not enough time to do it, and gettin hit from every angle with opinions, criticism, but fuck it, everyone is entitled to their opinion, but I have to make the decisions myself, it's ME that;s gonna have to live with the fallout...
Hell, I shoulda been a politician...all that blurb and not one specific sentence what the fuck I;m on about hahahahaha