Isn't it ironic?  

shaken_storm 46M
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8/17/2005 9:24 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Isn't it ironic?


It is ironic that I stand here - a man who is torn between faithfulness to a marriage that is very difficult and looking out for my own happiness at the expense of my wife and child - and that the most common perception of me is that I am a kind and sweet man.

While kindness is an important facet of my character, I have to wonder sometimes if there isn't something more lurking beneath the surface - something that facilitates the disconnect between my wife and I - something that explains why I have trouble being faithful to her. Something that makes sense of this madness...

Sometimes, I swear, I feel absolutely out of control... and that scares me. If I do leave my wife - will I just be the same way with anyone else? Or would it be different with someone else

__Huntress__ 55M/57F

8/17/2005 7:24 pm

You are indeed at a crossroad ... !

I remember asking my father when I was little why he always cheated on my mom and although I would rather not repeat what his answer was ... what I learned from him is this ... even the best of men, when what they need is lacking, will wish for more ! It is basic - it is instinctive ... it is not a reflection of you but a reflection of what is going on in your life ... !


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