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An Honest Answer for Dowd3 :
An Honest Answer for Dowd3 :
Sorry but Married Men cant give me what I am looking for - I have to honestly say that I have been with a few of them only to have been a one-night stand with them. And that still hurts. I still think about them and how they seemed to have faked being pleased by me or why else would I had been a one-night stand ? I even believed their lies about wanting more cuz their wives couldnt give them the passion and sex they wanted or the wife didnt want sex anymore - lost her sex drive a long time ago. I felt that I could but only got hurt after-wards.
A few I met on this site and others in a yahoo chat room or group for married but looking. I have done it all trying to meet one man who wanted the same as I did : a emotional AND sexual relationship - one who can handle me being kind of needy to a point.
As for my man telling me how to live my life - I dont want that only love to be told in a sexual way - My ex husband of 20 yrs told me what I could and couldnt do like I was his daughter ( cuz he is 16 yrs older then me) instead of his wife. When I finally left him on Aug 31, 2004 - came back home to my Parents and told my Mom , she was right - I regretted marrying him and to this day , I STILL DO.
I honestly dont think I ever truly loved him , yes I cared - But caring wasnt enough to keep me with him after 19 yrs. He was a drunk when we first got to together being 16 at the time , it was cool - but after I got pregnant the 2nd time was when the problems started - he threw a dresser towards me and stressed me out , I lost the baby. Then things got worse and I was stuck. He wouldnt let me leave him and I did 3 times from 18 to 21 only to return back to him for support and didnt have my high school diploma and had our kids to think about - in the end I have 3 kids with him. My youngest is 16 and married and expecting soon. She hates me for breaking up the family but one day she will see I did it for her.
I filed for and got our divorce over with in Oct 2005 - we are still friends , I think - lol
He comes over to see our son and to bring our oldest daughter over to see me since she lives with him. She is pregnant by her so-called b/f who only sees her once a month , other times he is busy with his friends and family.
My ex husband broke me at the age of 16 for anal - I kind of remember it - it hurt at first and he used his spit instead of lube or baby oil or my pussy juices - but I loved it and got to where I only wanted my ass fucked for a month , he got tired of just fucking my ass - said he wanted my pussy more.
Anyways , As for fisting - I met a guy on line back in July 24 , 2004 - he seemed to really want me and told me everything about fisting sounded hot and I wanted to try it with him , only he had a g/f and had a hard time cheating on her so I found another man who was into it and meet him , he fisted my pussy and fucked my ass at the same time , it hurt while he fisted it and wouldnt stop , he made me take it til he pulled his cock out of my ass and came on my ass cheeks. In the end , I enjoyed it was sore but didnt mind.
As for the guy I met only online that had his g/f - We was only on line Lovers - he stood me once after I moved back and in the end ,( we talked on and off for 17 months - never meeting) He ended it cuz he knew deep down I wanted more then he could give me cuz he really loved her - he wasnt getting the sex he wanted either. We did the cam sex and he always told me that I made him cum harder then anyone else ever did.
I AM JUST A WOMAN WHO KNOWS WHAT SHE WANTS AND USED TO THINK I PLEASED A MAN LIKE NO ONE ELSE.
But my lonely nights , being used and lied to has made me wonder. Again , I dont think I will ever be truly happy or wanted for a relationship - more about that later or maybe.
Good Luck and All my Best , Linda