Afew more thoughts before I make myself get off my ass ;)  

sexymom20069 48F
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5/20/2006 12:09 pm

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5/20/2006 3:24 pm

Afew more thoughts before I make myself get off my ass ;)

No Dowd3 , your are right. I cant bring myself to trust another married man - well ANY man as of yet. And this all can be blamed on several different men.
My ex boyfriend one , I knew as a teenager in the neiborhood I grew up in. He found me here on this site back on Aug 12 last yr. He knew who I was the minute he saw my pic. He emailed me but didnt tell me who he was - I agreed to meet him after talking for a hour or so, still didnt tell me who he was and his name didnt give me a hint.
As soon as he pulled up and got out , I wanted to cry. He was a sight for sore eyes. I had a crush on him back then but he had the hots for my step-sister who was and not so skinner then me now. We talked , hugged and got a feel for one another - and ended up having a passionate night of short but wonderful love making. he made all my pains of the past liars go away. I was in heaven - we agreed to be together - no one else is what he said. I hide my profile and he kept his open.
Long story short - after 2 months together - something happened - no emails , phone calls or im's at all for almost 2 months. He finally told me what happened and he needed time to figure it all out. I couldnt leave him alone - I loved him and wanted to be with him. He was still on the site and I am sure to this day , he was seeing other women for sex and ended up in a relationship with one.
He finally talked to me and wanted to be friends with benefits - I tried but knowing he was with another - I couldnt. Then I thought I could be just fuck buddies but he was still with her and yes I let him used me - no one else ever made me feel so good or so wanted.
Now , its been since Feb since I seen him or heard from him - Maybe he is married now or living with her - Dont know. I could go to the place where he lived and see BUT I am not that kind of person.
I AM AN HONEST PERSON and VERY UP-FRONT.
I do and can get easily attached to someone and that is why I cant see another married man. I dont want to be hurt anymore or USED.
I want closeness , passion , compassion , and in the end LOVE. Something I dont think I ever had with my ex husband. There was some passion in the begining with him , and desire - hell we had sex 7 times in one evening. Yes , I got him hard 7 times. back then I was only 16 and knew what to do
Then as we got older , we grew apart sexually like most married couples and I had an 3 yr affrair with another guy from my old neiborhood. And ended it cuz I can to my senses that he was just using me for my money , car and sex.
My marriage sex life was once a month cuz of stress from our kids and he came home from work all stinky & drity - which turned me off.
I am a very clean person - I take 2 to 3 showers a day - always want an clean pussy.
Now , its time for me to head out.
TAKE CARE , ALL MY BEST AND GOOD LUCK TO ALL , Linda



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