A long Deep Thought - Read with CAUTION :  

sexymom20069 48F
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5/18/2006 2:01 pm

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5/18/2006 3:13 pm

A long Deep Thought - Read with CAUTION :

I try to keep a cool head and not jump into bed with everyone who says they want me - I would never be home and always tired
Yes , I love sex but dont want to be a one-time fuck or a sex buddy - Maybe one the Sex Buddy IF I was 110 % sure that the guy was only seeing me and No one really knows for sure if someone is 110 % faithful , now do we unless we was stuck up their ass 24/7 and I dont want that - I want someone for some quite time and some wild nights.
Someone to just call to say hi and that he is thinking of me. Someone to lay in bed at night , knowing he is there and not leaving me.
But , some want sex buddies without feelings or commitments. Some want to just fuck and leave. I want , crave , desire and need more. You cant get complete satisfaction that unless there is some feelings. I dont want to know who you have and havent been with Or who you want or wants you - I had some guys want to know about my past sex life before them - said it turns them on , knowing - NOT ME. It turns me off and makes me iffy to if I really want to meet this person or not.
"Friends with Benefits" had that once and started to fall for the guy , he felt it too and ended it cuz he was looking at another for a relationship , I wasnt his type and knew it. He was a good man , made me feel wanted for the short time we was friends. He promised he wouldnt leave me as friend and that I was a good person and realized I wasnt his type in the end. To this day , I havent heard from him since I called him back in Jan. just to see how he was. He left me , like I knew he would. Its cool , I told him and he said I was wrong but deep down I knew I was right , I am always right and I hate being right all the time. So , who can cum along and keep his word and prove me wrong ???????
So please dont tell me that I am a good or wonderful person , cuz I will call you a liar.
If I was either of those - I wouldnt be alone right now and crying myself to sleep sometimes at night for the lost love that I lost months ago. Or feeling so lonely and unwanted.
Crying for being used for just sex , being lied too by guys who say they will and can give me what I am looking for , who use me for one night then deciede that they cant give me that.
Ok, now I am crying as I sit here thinking back to those guys and yes , I met them from this site - so why am I still here ? Dont know , do I care to know ? Not really. So, I will write my stories and post my pics just to TEASE some guys who say I turn them on.
So ENJOY - All my Best and Good Luck , Linda



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