sexyeyes375 47F
611 posts
4/20/2006 12:48 pm

Last Read:
5/17/2006 11:20 am


Chaos, panic, & disorder - my work here is done.

In lieu of an explanation of where the hell my posts went - if you were wondering - here is a quick blurb typed fresh from my confused mind.

I began this blog to get back to writing.. my love of writing. It was strictly for me, done in an environment that made me feel comfortable. The comments were a bonus and many times inspirational. The back and forth was oftentimes much more entertaining than the quickly written post. Seeing those same people return filled me with a warmth that I do not have in my real life. And that makes me sad. I did not intend to share any part of my personal life in my blog. I knew enough of me would be revealed in how I write. When I wrote a personal post, it was for a release and I would sometimes delete it.. other times not. I left it up as a 'doing something out of my comfort zone' exercise. I tend to jump in those directions from time to time.. Most of these posts are simple and not very important. But they are the words I chose to use. When you read them, you see a glimpse of who I am. I did share... I did open up.. I was exposed. And if you ask me, I would answer. .(Off the wall comment to those who have remarked that I do not share myself readily - allow anyone in) So are they just words? I am still here and they are not. So that would constitute a resounding yes. Did writing this make me feel better? No. Will I continue to blog? I don't know.. I more than likely will but I am in a dark place and that does not make for very pretty reading, now does it?

Maybe I will return after my attitude has been adjusted or my prescription has been refilled.

*edited* 4/20/06

GuyWhoListens2u 56M
325 posts
4/20/2006 1:11 pm


Access to what you have inside is an honor and pleasing, no matter how you are feeling.

I do wish things were better for you and I hope you continue here. You are one of the good things that happen to me.

ticktock500 44M

4/20/2006 1:18 pm


imLadyBambi 58M/50F

4/20/2006 1:22 pm

I really hope you return, I enjoy your blogs.

Lady Bambi

Mr_sweetness 44M
2599 posts
4/20/2006 2:12 pm

HUUUUUGGGGGGGGSSSSSS Beautifull i will miss you and i will hold you in my thoughts wishes and prayers...Plz come back soon and i hope all works out for you..may god smile on you always...Bye for now Sexy...Peace, love and happiness

Peace, cause there is to much violence and blood shed in the world!!

Love, cause there is to much hate in the world!!

Happiness, cause it feels good and life is to short to be mean and unhappy all the time!!

SpaceRangerNJ 55M
4687 posts
4/20/2006 2:43 pm

Write it down here or elsewhere, paint it, talk about it. Let it out.
Come back to us safe and sound and healthy.
We're with you.

toothysmile 50M
16515 posts
4/20/2006 4:45 pm

You already know which are my favorite posts of yours.
But I won't ask you to re-post them.
And yes, the comment interchange with you has always been fun.

Thank you for allowing us a glimpse of your world. It is a fascinating place to visit.

cozy1957 59M

4/20/2006 4:52 pm

Sometimes a dark place is the place for you. Stay there until you're done there.

Pretty reading isn't always good reading. Go ahead, write some dark stuff. You don't have to post it, just write it.

I hope to read more of what you want to write. I find it captivating.

rm_anacortes 74M
2850 posts
4/20/2006 5:42 pm

I am in a pretty dark place and that does not make for very pretty reading, now does it?


Maybe I will return after my attitude has been adjusted


ArgosPlumyKooky 45F
3902 posts
4/20/2006 7:52 pm

write through the darkness if you can. . .

mrgrimshade 44M

4/21/2006 6:29 am

do what you know is right for YOU...but I am willing to add "warmth" to your dark place


in the twilight of light and dark

rm_vixenflir 58M
295 posts
4/21/2006 8:24 am

As with all things in life.......the 'light' will return and free you from the dark place until it will be just a memory.....and those of us who truely do care will be around waiting for you when it does....

rm_chowbox2005 43M

4/22/2006 6:41 am

I understand completely. Every once in a while something here hits really close to home. Or an opportunity that was only originally intended as fantasy, makes itself available to become reality. And it can be very scary. ( That happened to me and I paniced and ran, but eventually came back, and am happy that I did so).

I will not pretend to understand what you are feeling, or who sexyeyes is on the inside. All I know is that I really like what you've revealed to me here. I see a sweet, kind, sexy, upbeat woman. I hope that you stay, but understand if you dont.

Best Wishes,

Licks, Chow

im_curious_4u 50M

4/23/2006 3:53 pm

<----- attitude adjuster.

Landof10KLicks 55M

4/23/2006 7:23 pm

Definitely continue your writing, whether you post it or not; after all, its for you primarily, not anyone else. I have found myself in a similar state of mind once or twice in my life, and I always found the writing ot be cathartic. And its a lot cheaper than therapy...lol Best wishes

redswallow777 48M
6810 posts
4/24/2006 9:16 am

Just want you to know I am not afraid of that darkness....but understand your not wanting to share about it.

Your blog has always been a special place for me to come to.....and I would miss you and it, if it were not here.

Take care!


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
4/24/2006 8:58 pm

I so know where you are right now... I'm an open book, but I worked my way through a lot here. Chin up!

VenusDiaries 62M
867 posts
4/27/2006 4:16 pm

The best things sometimes come from darkness. A dark and forboding mood sometimes tells us more about ourselves than we care to imagine, but it's truth produces images we can't live without. Write no matter the mood, get it out, get it done with. If you look at my images I am getting it out of my system.

GleesFlakyShawl 50M
1620 posts
4/28/2006 8:41 pm

.. just chaos and disorder? hmmmm......

im_curious_4u 50M

5/1/2006 9:14 pm

Get that prescription refilled or attitude adjusted yet?

rm_chowbox2005 43M

5/3/2006 6:42 am

Sexyeyes...If you ever want to chat, please come find me at

Licks, Chow

DiscreteGuy46 57M

5/4/2006 10:22 pm

I just stumbled across your profile & this blog, and I'm so blown away. I never expected to find such introspection, honesty, and artfulness here ("what's a nice girl..."). I just LOVE all the supportive, mature comments from people with pictures on the side of themselves (half) undressed. Dark or no, Horny or no, this has got to be one of the most "whole person" places I've ever seen. Thank each & every one of you - and you, sexyeyes, for your honest hearts & transparency.

digdug41 49M

5/9/2006 7:50 am

write whatever it is you want to its your blog use it as a means of therapy to get all of the shit on your mind out of your system

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