It is time to let you go  

sexydisaster30 41F
5527 posts
2/26/2006 10:43 am

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11/25/2006 9:53 pm

It is time to let you go


It is time. It is time to let you go and to allow you to realize what it is that you really want. Playing with two worlds. Caught between the two. Being pulled in two completely different directions. It is time that you made decision. One that I have no control over. One that I will surely lose. One that you need to make on your own with no help from me. It is a decision that only you can make. One that I am no longer willing to help you with. One that I cannot help you with. My feelings are becoming stronger and I am afraid of getting hurt. It is time for me to make the decision of pain or no pain. Will it sting to walk away? Yes. More than I thought. More than you know. I wish that I could make your decision for you. I wish that I could take away your pain, but I cannot. I feel like I am hindering your decision to be happy. I respect and like you too much for that. I want happiness for you and I feel that I am standing in the way of that. True happiness is something that we all deserve. You crave it. You need it. I am not going away forever, but I must leave for now. You must understand that this is more a protection mechanism for me. Not a rejection of you. I would never be able to do that. Not now. Not ever. I have developed feelings for you that I didn’t expect. That, to be honest with myself, I didn’t want. But, I couldn’t help it. You opened my eyes to a world that I didn’t know existed. You opened my eyes to things that I never thought were possible. I am grateful for that. I am thankful. No matter what happens, no matter if we speak again or not, I will always be thankful for the things that I have learned from you. I will look back on the past month and remember it fondly. It will make me smile. There are not many things that have ended in my life that I can say that about. It just seems appropriate to take this stand on this today. It has been after all one month to the day. One fabulous month. One full of learning and growing for me. I wish you the best in your journey weather you end up back with me or back on the path that you started on. I wish you nothing but days filled with happiness and honesty. I wish you peace. I wish you a life filled with honesty…………..true honesty.

-Disaster


jadedbabe78 106F

2/26/2006 1:36 pm

Sweetie -- I know it's hard to let something go. Everyone who enters our lives do so for a reason. We may not know what at the time, but with time...you'll figure it out. You're a strong woman.

All the best - Jadey


aascrompn 42M
6444 posts
2/26/2006 2:56 pm

I'm sorry that things didn't work out! I know it can't be easy, as he sounds like a great guy. Who knows, maybe he will be able to figure everything out eventually...


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