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thirst for change
thirst for change
i went out to a party last night for the first time in years. i've been working so much and i'm so tired all the time, i have no time for a social life. it was rather a horrible party, actually: there were a whole bunch of kids (well, i say kids, but they're all my age now) that i knew back in high school hanging out there. a most unwelcome blast from the past. what a bunch of wankers. i had a couple of beers, though i could not be convinced to do a keg stand. it would have been hard to explain to a bunch of drunken 20 yr old guys that i couldn't be inverted over the keg because i wasn't wearing any panties under my black lace skirt. naturally, all the cute guys at the party were attached and all the cute chicas were straight. *sigh*
i should go out more often. i've fallen into such a rut: work, home, work, home. i sit on the couch and watch cartoons until i pass out, which is usually before midnight. i'm still young! this is ridiculous.
i am making money, though, which is a plus. being able to pay my rent is slightly more important, i guess, than having a good time. oh, and being able to eat food. that's pretty sweet too. i played hooky from work today; i was kind of hungover. in fact, i'm still kind of hungover and i've been drinking water non-stop since i woke up. i probably shouldn't have had all that rum and coke when i got home last night. soda is so dehydrating.
i have so much stuff to do today as well. washing dishes, sweeping and vacuuming, cleaning the bathtub. when i was in college all i wanted to do was burst into full-blown adulthood; now that i've reached it, i'd give anything to regress into immaturity and irresponsibility once more.
ah, regrets, irritations, and inanities. i love my life.