drowning  

sexloverocknroll 57M
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7/18/2006 1:06 pm

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7/23/2006 1:26 pm

drowning


Very early Monday morning, the day I left Jamaica, I had a disturbing dream. The dream began with me riding in a car with my mother driving (the car was right hand drive), my sister next to her in the front seat, me behind my sister and my son beside me behind my mother. The car began to roll over and over, from side to side, along the side of the road. I said, as we rolled, “Well, at least we did not land in the lake.” At which point, we landed up-right in the lake. The car began to slowly sink, the front going down first. All of the windows were open and I told every one to jump out. I can not swim, but I told myself I was going to and it was not so far to shore. “Just keep your baring, look straight ahead,” I instructed everyone. But before we could move, the car suddenly and quickly turned over on it’s side, my side, and began to sink very rapidly. That is when I woke.

I woke with a start and my heart pounding rapidly. Fear gripped me as I lie there trying to make sense of it all. Panic and desperation were trying to escape, then take over. As a child, I was very afraid of the water, but that is not now and not the issue. So, I asked myself, what does drowning mean? What am I drowning in? Why my mother and sister and son? I began to look around at my life, but nothing really came to me. Sure, work was/is a huge hassle, but I do not see it as drowning me. I could find no answers and still, today, over a week latter, that dream is fresh in my mind, nothing.

Many things around me are going wrong. Most are only minor annoyances, but add them together and they are becoming trouble. Some are big problems. Last night, I was feeling like everything is going wrong. I was told that Mercury is in retrograde and causing some of us to be out of balance and the source of the troubles. If so, I sure hope this ends soon. It is hard enough for me right now with being depressed and lonely and feeling out of place.


sexloverocknroll 57M
415 posts
7/22/2006 8:02 pm

    Quoting looking19632008:
    Scary dream....you have the ability of a lot of changes right now- maybe youre just feeling overwhelmed? Hang in there- you know how to get in touch with me if you need me......
Thanks! Yes, it was scary and yes I am feeling overwhelmed, but why? I can not make changes if I do not know what to change.


sexloverocknroll 57M
415 posts
7/23/2006 5:21 am

    Quoting looking19632008:
    Look back over the past fews weeks- your trip...talking about moving there, finding your partner...these are huge life changes...
Ok, I see. Thank you!!!


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