I'm SSOO not looking for perfect, in fact, I'm not looking at all!  

seducttra05 44F
20 posts
7/7/2005 8:43 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

I'm SSOO not looking for perfect, in fact, I'm not looking at all!

If I have learned anything from my recent dip in the "adult industry job" pool, it is that everyone just wants affection. To some, affection is hugging, cuddling, and just talking with someone who will listen , to some it is getting nasty and doing things that their wife wouldn't DREAM of doing! To others it is fucking that girl that in real life, in a club or something, would never give them a second glance. Well, since starting this endeavor borne of necessity, I have decided that it is quite an undertaking to be the perfect girl for every man, especially when you've only just met.
Personally, I am not looking. I have a boyfriend in my personal life that isn't perfect, but neither am I. With him, I can let my "pooch" hang over my jeans, with him I can let my room get beyond disaster and not care, with him I don't always have to have my makeup done "just so". And I don't think that there is ANYONE that is always "on it", even when they've just woken up. I kinda like the fact that sometimes our scars seem to line up perfect. It's hard to find that "perfect person" when there's really no such thing.


seducttra05 44F

7/8/2005 1:13 am

Perhaps, however, I tend to be a person that notices small things.. and don't get me wrong, but I used to start to pick at that, within my own mind. But I've since made this realization..obviously you made this realization already, good for you.


rm_bandcampmbr 44M

7/8/2005 6:37 pm

I read your blog and agree. I may have not been as much of a "fantasy come to life" as you have pain stakingly taken the time to be, but I have been "the ideal" man to some. It is hard to maintain that illusion. You have to check every thing you do as to not reveal the flaws when you first meet someone. I look at a first time meeting like an interview. The position I want to fill is lover, sexual deviant or just plain fuck buddy. Every joke, glance, touch is part of the application process. The way you walk, smell, even eat could be the difference between a blowjob or a kiss on the cheek, a roll in the bed or a handshake at the door. There is that comfort of having someone you can be real with. Though things aren't always ideal, they are what they are. I'm glad to have read your blog, it makes me realize I'm not alone in that sort of thinking.


rm_bigguy2448 43M
2 posts
8/4/2005 6:36 pm

It either feels right or not.
Never ever bypass your instincts.
Love to All...


diggerdown2 56M
34 posts
10/20/2005 7:19 pm

Hey, why would we mind if your "pooch" is showing, as long as it doesn't bark at or bite us? If it's a good "pooch," it might be kind of fun to pet it, no?

The funny thing is, I pet YOUR pooch, and it's MY pet that sits up and begs.


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