Phase Two: The Reclusion  

savoyman1977 39M
96 posts
5/2/2005 3:39 pm

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10/11/2011 8:15 pm

Phase Two: The Reclusion

Though I did enjoy my promiscuous phase to some extent, the feelings I had during it caused me great pain on the inside. Eating away at me like a ferocious nympho nibbling a freshly shorn pussy.

Eventually, I couldn't take it anymore, and became ashamed of my behavior. So much so that I went into reclusion. Several women that I knew, I was still talking to, and I shut them out. All of them, every last one. No matter if they seemed to have any real promise for a relationship or just the potential for a nice romp, I walked away from all of them. I didn't really speak to anyone for a little while. I just went into a shell of my life, hiding from what I needed to face. I didn't return calls, I didn't return emails, I shut myself off from the world around me, other than work, which I could not afford to do. This was the point where I began dealing with the fact that my marriage had failed, that I didn't succeed, and once again, my personal life was a failure.

Myself, I had a hobby with which I drove myself into. That is my old cars. It just so happened that at the same time I fell into this cycle, it warmed up a little, and I started getting my old car ready for its rebuilt engine. Ironically, I think this is where many guys that do not have such hobbies fall into the cycle of despair that puts them smack dab in the middle of a bar, drinking their loss away.

This is the point that makes or breaks a guy. He is either going to buck it up, figure out his feelings and stand right back up, or he is going to slump down into his seat, spending his days wondering why it didn't work out, never truly dealing with the emotions that are gurgling inside him.

Myself, I am standing up. How about you?

scubasnack2005 58M/58F

5/2/2005 4:48 pm

EXCELLENT advice. Most times the 'life is unfair' comments come from those who DON'T deal with it.

GREAT positive affirmation of responsibility:
a) THESE are MY choices
(everyone willing to do this one),
AND b) THESE are the consequences of those choices
(not everyone gets this)

[[Are you sure you're not Dr. Phil?]]

savoyman1977 39M
14 posts
5/2/2005 6:05 pm

Not the last time I checked... I am certain he would have a larger bank account than I.

69ugotme69 29F

10/11/2011 12:10 am


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