The picture you see before you...  

sargntivan 34M
13 posts
11/18/2005 4:20 pm

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10/18/2008 10:24 am

The picture you see before you...

I've always had a curiosity with the prolific experiences that I've heard of through this site. I understand all of the different connotations this site offers, yet this site alludes more to a certain mindset that I've never shared but feel I want to taste.

I guess it begins with hormones. Every guy in the world feels that sexual urge for no reason. The need to command power over a woman or share something very intimate with her. I've been cautious my whole life. I saved my virginity until I was 19, I never even kissed a girl until I was 14 and in high school. In a predominantly Christian and white neighborhood, I was as cautious as they came. I could've lost my virginity more than a dozen times throughout high school and the beginnings of college, but I was determined to lose it to someone I really loved. I did, or so I thought. Long story short, I lost it to my first love. I don't regret it, but now she's not worth my time for the deception and lies that circled her.

After that, I loosened up. I always flirted, but got really nervous when it came to really following through. I would have sex with the person if I wanted a relationship with them, but I couldn't do "friendly sex." I'd think about it, talk about it, fantasize about it, but when it came time to actually make the move, I couldn't. Some weird thing always got in the way.

Now, I'm single, free, happy, securing myself in my career, and I want to have some fun. I've had some flings, but I really want to make it a casual thing. People say I'm all talk and no action. That's part-way true. I get nervous, and I don't know why. You? You're here to follow me as I try to loosen up a bit and have some fun in my 20s. Hopefully, you'll see me progress (with some encouragement, and maybe some help) into a freer being.

The picture you see of my "equipment" is the first that I've ever publicly displayed. I masturbated on camera for someone, and liked it. I'm starting to open up, I just need more time. =) Thanks for reading.

screwmeovernout 59M

11/18/2005 6:05 pm

Good for you, hope u meet a lot of nice women to help u out

26andready2go 37F

11/19/2005 1:16 pm

Your blog is great, you're in the same boat I am however I've lived my early 20's already...I had a lot of fun and now that I'm out of my last serious relationship I'm having a bit of controlled fun now. I look forward to talking with you and seeing where things head (excuse the pun).


pussinboots4u 50M/47F

12/20/2005 4:11 pm

Well, good luck on your journey! Look forward to reading about it.

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