Remembering 2005  

sargemc 64M
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1/1/2006 8:29 am

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Remembering 2005


I was sitting up the other night remembering the year just past. I had many challenges this past year. I lost a son to suicide. I had major surgery. But the thing I will always remember is the love of a grand child.

My oldest son, who was killed in Iraq, has a daughter. I am able to watch her grow and change everyday. She just turned 3 last week. It
reminded me that I lost him 3 years ago. But, I can see him in his daughter everyday. The way she looks at me. The twinkle in her eye when she is happy. The way she pouts when she is sad.
I get to experience her laugh and her crying.

Christmas of 2005 will always be a memory I will look back on with great joy. I went over to my daughter-in-law's house in the morning dressed as Santa. My son's step-sons, ages 7 and 5 and my grandaughter were so excited to see Santa
in person. My oldest grandson figured out who
it was in that crazy suit. But, never let on.

My grandaughter was a typical child of three. She did not trust a man in a beard and red suit
at all. I was laughing on the outside, but crying on the inside. Crying because my son could not be there to witness this first hand,
and what happened later in the day.

As they were leaving to visit their other grand parents, she wanted to stop and tell me about her morning. She came into the house all excited
and so alive. She could not go without telling me
who came to see her on that very morning. I hope
it is a memory she will have for the rest of her life. Well, at least until the next exciting thing happens to her very young life. I know I
will remember for the rest of mine.

frogger1995 39F

1/1/2006 9:04 am

Sorry to hear about the bad things...it's so great you are focusing on the positive wonderful things that have happened. You truly are blessed. Happy New Year


pussinboots4u 50M/47F

1/2/2006 4:40 am

So sorry for your loss. It sounds as if you have will have wonderfull memories of this Christmas with your grandaughter.

Happy New Year.


rm_verrriberri 82F
1 post
1/16/2006 4:31 pm

Sarge - after reading your posts to the board, it's really clear that you should reach out in the real world to some of the people that care about you. Please get some help sarge. It would be very sad for everyone involved if something happened to you. -v


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