The internal turmoil  

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1/19/2006 7:03 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

The internal turmoil


Of course, with the offer on the table that would allow me to pursue partners on my own, things changed a bit. Initially, I wasn't sure if this was a trick or a trap. But this is my wife I'm talking about: my best friend, my partner in life, the ONE for me! She would only say this if she was serious. This wasn't a game she was playing, but she did put the ball on my court. The door was open and it was now up to me to decide.
Hence the crisis. This was the golden opportunity to play, to experiment, to do as I pleased in the sack with whomever I pleased. But it didn't seem that way. I took it the wrong way, and felt let down. Here was something I wanted for US, and she turned it around and made it about ME.
Little ol' ME.
It took me a while to come to grips with my new situation. I began scouring all the sites where we previously had profiles or ads to see what the heck a married man could find on his own. I soon realized that if the single man has a difficult time of it, below him on the evolutionary scale of least desired partners was the married male. The attached, committed, potentially drama-filled, married male.
That was me.

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