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what's the point
what's the point
Why is that eveytime i try to get invovled with some, they never bother to show interest in me. i honestly feel sorry for myself when i think of the fact that i've never truely been invovled with anyone. no relationship at all.
the feeling i recieve from most women is really a lack of interest. yet when i hear most of them, they describe their dream man in every detail.........it sounds alot like me. so if women want a guy like me, then why do i get rejected when i offer myself to them. i just never understand it.
To think about it: where am i meeting these women at? obviously i'm meeting the wrong type of women. OnLine dating doesn't seem to be it. 3 months of using this damn site and i've only met one person from the sight, that one person really does see me for who i am and can grauntee that i'm the real deal. thank baby!!!
the thing is that i've been alone for so long and rejected so many times, i've become numb to it. So i don't care, and i just brush it off. sometimes you can't teach an old dog new tricks.
at the start of being 20, i feel so behind in this "game" of relationships, sex and what not's. being lost and confused...........do i really deserve to be invovled with anyone? if i can't even figure out what kind of woman i want, do i desereve to feel wanted and cared about? i sometimes wonder why i even bother trying to be invovled with the opposite sex. NO!!!!!!! i'm not gay! but losing my virginity at 19 and not having sex for over a year now........most people would see that as odd.
but maybe it's everyone else that is odd. maybe i'm just misplaced in time. so many times i feel like my type of people, men, are an endangered species. this time period is no longer welcome to chilvary, honesty, and diligance. much more about ME, ME , ME, and me. it's all about the looks, it's all about the fashion, it's all about the slim figure and the rock hard abs, it's all about the quick solution to get the things we want.