Before, during and to now...my life has taken many turns.  

rm_xtreem247 55M
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3/27/2006 7:27 am

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Before, during and to now...my life has taken many turns.


Have you ever wondered how and why you are where you are today? Life is full of many turns, bumps fun and experiences. Some really suck and some the most awesome to be imagined and realized.
Growing up on the northwest side of Milwaukee, myself, Mom & Dad and 6 bro's and sista's life was far from boring. We were the terror of the neighborhood, always getting into some shit or trouble but with a lot of friends. On a rare ocassion I see some of the people from the old neighborhood and we laugh about most of it...some really great memories there. I was one of the "park punks", as they called us. We hung out at a local park most of the time. I skipped a lot of school, hung out with the wrong people, got in trouble and did all the things, I thought, everyone did. My Mom & Dad divorced when I was about 8, I think. I don't know for sure. All I can remember is when my Mom told me he was leaving. Alcohol got the best of him, it was for the best as I see it mow but then it didn't seem so great. We ad no money, holes in our shoes and had the electricity turned off on a couple of occasions. I to this day do not know how my Mom pulled us all through it. I learned some valuable lessons from it all, unfortunately not realized until I was in my late 20's.
I could have very well been short for this life, as one day I smacked my head on the side of the public pools' concrete deck. I sank to the bottom unconcious. I was pulled out by someone who to this day I do not know. I remember going in and out of conciouness at the pool and on the way to the hospital in the ambulence. This was all like 3 or 4 days before my Mom was to get remarried. So pardon any drain bamage I may have.....at least I have an excuse...lol
At 15, we moved to a small town of about 3,000 people. It was about 30 miles south of Milwaukee but may have well been a thousand miles as I had no means of transportation. A small farm community with absolutely nothing to do. I hated and dispised it all. I often considered stealing a bike and riding back to my old neighborhood. I didn't get along well in the school and had a hard time adjusting to it all. I dropped out of high school at 16, tried to go back at 17 but it just didn't work. I went to a tech. college for some electronic servicing class, did fairly well but didn't go any further with it. I work at a duck farm (yes, a duck farm!) until I was 18. I drank, smashed up cars and partied way to much before I was 18 even. I got a job in a local machine shop, one of the best places in town to work. I stayed there for 8 years and worked my way up the ranks. During that time I got married to the girl I was "going out with" for the past 4 years. We were engaged for another 2 years before we finally did it. We had a daughter and lived in an awesome house that we rented from her Aunt, out in the country. I loved being there, a huge yard a dog and all of life seemed really good, except I wasn't making enough $$$ to live comfortably and we pretty much struggled, like most people did at that point in their lives. I went to work at a different place in Racine for better money but was soon laid off from there. I worked fixing up rental houses for a friend I worked there with for cash and collected unemploymet. I was making better money then I was working! Unemployment was running out so I took another job for what was left of the old Allis Chalmers. Only thing was I needed a high school diploma. So when I was 28, I went back and got it within a few weeks. Soon after I took the job, my wife told me she wanted to get divorced. I was shocked, dismayed, embarrassed and hurt. Looking back, a lot of it was my fault. I took a lot for granted and quite trying to improve the relationship. It became stagnent, we fought and I was unwilling to open up and talk with her. We were more like 2 people living in the same place but not having the openness and communication needed for a successful relationship, but I couldn't see that then. The divorce wasn't bitter, long and dragged out and I didn't get raked along the coals. We pretty much agreed on most everything. It was hard me emotionally as I really didn't want to get divorced. I later found out all of the stuff that was going on behind my back. Her "friend" at work she was seeing, going out while I was working (I worked 2nd shift at the time). Her idea of "needing time to think about things" amounted to having her boy friend over for the weekends. It was like a stake in the heart that I could do nothing about, seeing his truck in the driveway knowing he was screwing my wife. Again, I learned some valuable lessons from that as well. I knew I could deal with bad circumstances and come out of it OK. The bad feelings didn't last that long, as I knew it was over and I had to just move on. Unfortunately it was our daughter who suffered the most. I did all I could to spend as much time as I could with her. Working 2nd shift, I had her during the day when the ex was working and every other week end.
Soon after, when I was 32 or so,I decided the facory life was not one I wanted to stay in. I went back to shcool, this time for Nursing. What a culture shock that was! School was rough, I worked full time, school mostly full time and had my daugter as well most of the time. I have no clue as to how I made it through. Maybe from all that I learned up to this point in my life. The last year of school I had no choice but to quit my full time job. I took a job as a nursing assistant part time while I finished school. Going from making $18/hr full time, with over time, to making $8/ hr part time really put a crunch on things. But it's what I had to do and it worked out for the best. I graduated, took the state board test, which is a story all in it's own, and to my amazement I passed! I have been an RN for the past 9 years now and realize it was the best choice I could have made.
I've learned so much through all the hard time, troubles I got into and from the good things that I've had happen so far. I really believe that we are who we are by the things we've been through in life. The thing is to learn from them and not make the same mistakes over again. When you think your life is complete shit, look at the homeless people who don't have a pot to piss in, or the 25 year old in a nursing home with MS who can't even toilet herself. Life is a gift, enjoy it. If you don't like something about your life, change it and quit bitching. We always have choices, we may not always like the choices but we do have them. Accept the things you cannot change, have the courage to change the tings you can, and pray for the wisdom to know the difference.
X

true_red1000 45F

4/6/2006 9:44 pm

You have been writing in my blog so I had to stop on over and see what was on your mind- I wish I had the time to write a blog like yours. MY life and everyones life has taken turns and when we take the time to look back on them - they are what they are and no matter what we can't change them now- but look at the future and go forward.


BadAssBlonde1 56F
4989 posts
9/3/2006 10:55 pm

X,

What stands out in this post to me is the fact that we do have choices. If more folks would stop and think about this, the yellow brick road would be more crowded. Good thoughts.

Lady Hunter


After all the sex is gone, there is the mind - Lady Hunter / BAB

Copyright © House of Lady Hunter 1998-2009


snatcher500 46M

9/28/2006 7:02 pm

What impresses me the most is you open honest details of your ups and downs. You sound like a very passionate women... Keep up the great reading material and stay sexy..


jjjoyride1 55M

11/18/2006 10:09 am

Hello X
I have4 to say I was impressed with your blog. A lot of points in it realy hit home for me also. Just wanted to say that .Ohhhh and say Hi Also . Take care and be well there.


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