Phone calls...  

rm_unlistedone 65M
3832 posts
8/25/2006 10:41 am

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8/17/2007 1:48 am

Phone calls...




Phone Calls...

I was thinking
about how easy it is
to pick up the phone
and call you...
and how impossible it is, also.

I know
the number
and how to punch
the numbers
and wait for it to ring...
it's just hard
to make that connection.

I did try.
Honestly, I did.
And it took
more nerve than you can imagine
for me to overcome
what I will
or will not...
allow myself to do...
just to make that call.

I wanted to ask
you a million questions;
but I didn't know
how to start.
I wanted to meet you
beyond halfway...
but again,
where to begin?

It didn't matter
at the end of the call.
You weren't there...
or saw caller id,
and decided
you were too busy,
or that you
had changed your mind...
afterall.

Conversations...
phone calls...
and starting to ask
the questions that need to be asked
are hard things to do.

Just wanted you to know...
I did try.

© copyright unlistedone 2006


rm_aWench4U 61M/61F
741 posts
8/25/2006 4:47 pm

Funny you should post this today. I've been struggling with making "that" phone call myself. The thing is, I promised to give him the time and space he needed to sort out what he wants--from me, for himself, for our life together. It's killing me to keep my distance, but I so want to be a woman of my word. So I don't call. But I can't stop thinking of him, and wondering, and hoping.

Remember the past but do not dwell there.
Face the future where all our hopes stand.


~Angela


rm_Jezdatip 64F
1335 posts
8/25/2006 11:03 pm

In time things that once seemed impossible will become less difficult. You left nothing to the imagination. You want to know, you need to know, even it you never know. ]


angelofmercy5 58F
17881 posts
8/26/2006 4:42 am

Just call her......that's all. 143


rm_unlistedone 65M
2718 posts
8/29/2006 12:28 am

Angela... Sorry I haven't responded to this for several days. I, like you, was giving someone the space they needed to make some decisions. You see, in my case, I don't feel it's right that I, should make any type of "first" move. That puts the other person in a very awkward position. But, if asked, I openly and readily reply.

As the poem shows though, I broke away from my self imposition, and did try to open the lines of communication. I called, not once, or twice... I finally called four times until I got the person on the line I wanted to speak to. And I could hear it in the voice... the kinda "I really want to know more; but the price of this may be too high" kinda voice. I placed pressure when I shouldn't have, I guess.

So, give them a little more time. And when you feel the time has been long enough, quietly make the phone call remembering that the call alone can put pressure on the other person. Just make it as friendly and as open as you can. Don't go for the big discussion or decision right then. Let them bring it up, if they want to. You, just let them know you are "still" there. I hope it works for you. Hug me
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Polly... I hope so too... at least, someday. hug, me
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Jez... that's true. But I'm afraid by making the call, it put undue pressure on them. I still would very much want them as a friend... not someone who is afraid to be around me.
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Shy... for something as simple as dialing a few numbers, it is very difficult and intimidating at times.
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Angel... thanks for the support hun... 143 me
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Fly...If you had heard my end of it, you would have wondered, "Why doesn't he ask what he wanted to ask?" But I could feel that they were uncomfortable in the conversation, so I didn't. Thanks for helping me try though, pal... 143, me


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