Will you ever recognize the truest fork in your road???  

rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
5791 posts
6/27/2005 12:44 pm

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Will you ever recognize the truest fork in your road???

One of my greatest fears that I will miss the boat in this AdultFriendFinder thing in that, while I have enjoyed the encounters, I am left with yearning for more.

While I was married to my last husband, who (as you know who have been reading my blogs) died of a heart attack just 2wks shy of our first anniversary. He doted on me and we had a very compatible and concurrent relationship -- meaning we worked together towards our goals and enjoyed our time together emensly. Sex was a communicated passion that we loved to share and explore on a daily basis and forever gave each other affirmations and room to grow.

I miss that very much.

Through AdultFriendFinder I have met some people who wish to have a LTR relationship in a sense with me (I am not certain that their defination of LTR is as committed as mine would be)...but it is some of the folks that I have met through AdultFriendFinder blogs that I have reached on an altogether different level, similar to the level of trust, compassion, and passion that my last husband and I had. Having been on that level once, I know how much I should treasure it because it is a level that is not often found twice -- or, so I have thought (and almost resigned myself to the fact) that I would have never been able to reach someone's soul like that ever again.

Whether I pursue what is near me or much further, I haven't quite decided. Perhaps, what I am experiencing is training, in a sense, for what it yet to come -- who knows????

How do you know when you have found the one that should be your eternal match for a lifetime????

There is love at first sight... do you believe that there could possibly be love at first read????

My last husband and I met through the internet personals and was definately a success. I, sincerely, believe that AdultFriendFinder could possibly lead to just as great or greater of a success.

I worry about missing the possiblity of achieving the same and quite possibly more a meeting of the minds and souls that I did with my last husband, which I recognized as a true opportunity of a lifetime after having had experienced some of it once truly.

Any sage words of advice???

Looking forward to your comments and suggestions????

Maybe it is just a dream or fantacy and I should move forward and never look back??? But....
what if......?????


rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
3289 posts
6/27/2005 11:45 pm

jim5131 - True... very true... especially the kind of converstation that keeps one interested even after from sunset to dawn... or dawn to sunset!!!

rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
3289 posts
6/27/2005 11:43 pm

harshawj - Well... whenever I do hope that when your path leads you in the direction you would like.... that that person receives that rose with the same passion that you give it. Is a scottish or irish thing that is said about the roads rising up to meet you??? How does that go????

jim5131 55M
1296 posts
6/27/2005 9:40 pm

I like that....more insight than I expected on a site like this with many of the responses just as unexpected. While there are many that look here for a week-to-week fulfillment of the emptiness, lack of love, need to feel wanted, release from old lifestyles or simply shallowness in depth, there is also many, if not all, that are looking for a sense of permanence in their companionship. I would imagine that many thought that life slipped them by, their chance of that lasting relationship lost in the thought that the 'good ones' are already taken and only us 'bad ones' are left to cling to each other. There are still some 'good ones' out there, disappointed, lost, discouraged and bored.

You can be an emotional acrobat if you wish to. I sense that you have a great deal of depth. There might just be another 'good one' that is reading the latest blog. While they might be interested in the sex, it is the depth of your character that lasts longer and keeps them enthralled.

And you never know which one is the keeper until you get to know them well. Takes time. And good conversation. Deep conversation.

rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
3289 posts
6/27/2005 8:16 pm

smileguyqc - Ahhh... you are very intuitive. I am only hoping that the boat will go full steam ahead....

rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
3289 posts
6/27/2005 8:15 pm

cajunpet - I am still trying to catch the kite-tail of my dreams....

rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
3289 posts
6/27/2005 8:14 pm

MrsGreenhenky --- Shhhh... did you see me buying those Wonka candies the other day???? lol...

rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
3289 posts
6/27/2005 8:12 pm

jayR63 - hmmmm... maybe I will!!!

rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
3289 posts
6/27/2005 8:11 pm

74ShovelHD - This is so true... but having that time to spend with one another is a treasure that has to be cherished. I have learned this lesson well and do hope that God gives me another chance in finding the same or better experience as I have had before.

I hope that you don't cancel your membership entirely if you do because I am so loving your insight and comments on my blogs. You are very wise....

rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
3289 posts
6/27/2005 8:07 pm

Zaphed905 - Actually, I agree with you about the beauty of the internet process is being able to develop a sense for the inner beauty without it being clouded by the elements of the physical attraction. Beauty is often found in the eye of the beholder, though....and it isn't the entire makeup of the existence of a true relationship that will hold true from sunrise to sunset ... or even sunset to dawn. I find that it is an incredible when people can co-exist because of their interests, etc... and not just because of any physical attraction one may have for one another....

My deceased husband and I did meet first on the internet. I think part of the beauty of the success of our relationship was built upon the communicative skils we already developed with one another through our writings, which only served to enhance our relationship to no end... and aided to open up the communication in the bedroom, which took us to a level that was left unmatched my any other person to date.

Please be sure to keep your options open; you will never know what might sneak up on you and really surprise you.....

rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
3289 posts
6/27/2005 7:56 pm

angelcoed1980 - Oh, I am not giving up hope... in fact, it may have just snuck up behind me!!! lol.. Keep up your faith...

rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
3289 posts
6/27/2005 7:54 pm

Texyan - it is the romantic in me that keeps looking back.... wondering if I have misspent my days somehow -- not following the path that I really should be following, etc. I just want to do what is right....but not knowing is really killing me... hee hee.. yet, the future amazes and excites me that I continue looking forward as well....

smileguyqc 53M

6/27/2005 6:46 pm

You don't seem like one to miss the boat Rose, I think you just might be the one driving it. Hey, have fun and when its right for you things will fall into place.

cajunpet 70M
1185 posts
6/27/2005 3:55 pm

I hope these words encourages you to keep your dream alive and live life to the fullest of your desires.

Every little thing that happens in your life is an opportunity to grow towards something greater. Learn that you are a beautiful women and that the universe is there for you to take the best out of everything. Always believe that the best is yet to come.

What happens when you lose a dream?
A dream that you've built your life around...
What happens when you go from the top of the world,
To rock bottom?
When you go from being the very best,
To barely surviving.
What happens then?
You learn to go on
That's what happens.
Things change and you take it day by day
Knowing that there is something better for you out there.
God wouldn't give you the ability to dream
Without the ability to make your dreams come true.

It takes vision and courage to create. It takes faith and courage to prove.

Dreams are renewable. No matter what our age or condition, there are still untapped possibilities within us and new beauty waiting to be born.

The human spirit cannot be paralyzed. If you are breathing, you can dream.

The substance of a "dream" is really what is known to us, from reality. To experience the "dream", live the dream through reality; it is, your dream! Your advantage is "only you" hold the key to unlock your dreams and let go!

Take care.
Keep On Blogging!!!! Have a great day.

Cajun Pet

MrsGreenhenky 37F

6/27/2005 3:46 pm

Ah say if theres beer in ta glass drink eet, if its empty buy anotha rooond.Ma needs are simple.

Youse keep visitin ta chocalate shop an sooner or later yees will geeta gold ticket n find your dream laddie in mr wonkas factory.

rm_jayR63 59F
1884 posts
6/27/2005 3:39 pm

If you would have tried to imagine five years ago where you would be today do youthink you would have even imagined your life as it is now.

I never would have.

You never know what life is going to deal out.
All you can do is hang on and enjoy the ride.

74ShovelHD 53M

6/27/2005 2:14 pm

Hmmmmm.... you have asked a very difficult question to answer.

I'm not sure I can give you sound advice...I joined this site to try to find something that is currently missing in my life...there are times when I feel that I should be happy with what I have, and cancel my membership... but every now and then, I come across someone that makes me think.."this is someone special".

Fortunately for you, when you find that special someone.. you can do something about it. Will it be an eternal match??? How do we ever know that? It takes an eternity to find out!!

Zaphed905 55M

6/27/2005 1:57 pm

Maybe the unique thing about meeting through internet chat is that your first perception of a person is of their inner selves, rather than the physical package. Maybe that's a great way to get to know someone. Still, it seems to me that it's not enough. To find out whether that person is "the one," some physical interaction is needed. What are your visceral reactions to each other? How do you get along in "daily life" situations, not just intellectual exchanges? Intellectually, we portray ourselves in the ideal - how close our real life is to that can only be determined by direct observation. I haven't got any experience on how to complete the package - maybe a visit or a vacation together would be the logical next step.

Lately, I've seen several, evidently intense, internet romances blossoming. They give me an uneasy feeling, particularly several involving May-December link-ups. Maybe they have true love. I don't know. But these kids that have only just left home (or haven't yet!) surely don't have enough life experience to be picking mates off the internet. Seems a bit like the older parties are preying on them. Sorry, that's straying from your topic, but seems related somewhat.

angelcoed1980 36F

6/27/2005 1:50 pm

I feel your pain although I have yet to find the first (of which I hope there are many) sould mates. I hope and long for that kind of connection. I do believe that it is possible for you to find that feeling again. However, I dop believe it is one of those things that once you stop looking it will find you.

Good luck and don't give up hope.


Texyan 61M
1 post
6/27/2005 1:35 pm

Always move forward and never look back. The only exsistence is the Present. The interesting fact about your last LTR is that it ended before the "honeymoon".

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