To laugh or cry???  

rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
5791 posts
10/14/2005 8:04 pm

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To laugh or cry???

It was a moment that I new was long time coming. I had been picked on by the staff b/c I say what is on my mind, I offer suggestions to do things better, and they feel that I am a threat to them...when, truly, I am not. I don’t believe in games and portray myself as a what you see what you get kind of gal. Trouble is that many people want to run things the way they see fit, and not necessarily the way that might be better. They were closed minded to my suggestions.

Today came the inevitable “I just don’t think that you are the right fit for us. You are a leader and not a follower; and, your position required to be a follower.”

Well, they probably hit the nail on the head. I have been frustrated by the lack of organizational skills, caring skills, etc. that they possess...and, they bounced back with things like I was crossing my boundaries by reading books to the kids on Christmas Eve while their parents were trying to wrap last minute gifts without them being under foot. If that is their best shot at me, then so be it.


Besides, I was already answering to 6 entities. I didn’t really need them. In fact, I have probably outgrown my usefulness and it was truly time to move on.

Even so, I do have some misxed emotions as that was my stable job; one that I could count on giving me a stated number of hours each week and a reliable resource for my monthly income, albeit it wasn’t an income I could survive upon on its own.

Ever feel those emotions??? Wondering if you have made a good decision???? Wondering if you jumped too soon, or not soon enough????

I think we all think things like that while we come to various forks in the road in our lives....

it is but for us alone to make the decision to keep moving forward and never looking back on our decisions ....

and hope and pray for the best.

What are your thoughts?????

Just curious…


jamda123 57M

11/8/2005 8:19 pm

Sounds like you're feeling rejected even though you did'nt like the job in the 1st place.

I'm not trying to give you advice. however, I have had my fair share of bad experiences, and it always seems to work out for the best. You will eventually get a better job.
In fact, later on you will look back and be grateful you no longer work at that place. It's while you're in the frying pan being cooked that it doesn't feel good.
I recently read something that has been working wonders for me. It sounds bizarre, but it really works. The technique is to imagine what it is you want to achieve and banish all doubt. It is simple, elegent and it works.

SAFE1bothways 58M

10/21/2005 11:27 am

Hey TX, loved Bryan/College Station circa 81. This post I'm responding to has parallel relationships with my-fork(life mission).
How would you like to become both leader & follower, with no derision?!
What if same made world, or at least America a better/SAFEr place to live...while also increasing your available spending? No this is NOT an offer for a B-S MLM. If you use "safelifestyles" at google, then back-n-forth in cached pgs(only 318 Top Hits many mine 4 nobody me)to read addnl'll find out this dad-n-grandads life mission.
You said:
decision???? Wondering if you jumped too soon, or not soon enough????

EXACTLY what you'll discover via above! Todays jumps can kill you!

My twist on your "but for us alone":
Keep moving forward(21st-century now folks), hope and pray but...
GUIDE the rest. "We boomers can make the biggest mark on humanities'
history ever". It's our duty to teach & protect our children?! ALL will be tremendously healthier via route above. NOT selling s___ etc

Short, cut to the quick home will soon give easier understanding.
As Dennis Miller pointed out numerous times in his humorous book..."I
don't mean to get off on a rant here-but..." I'm proud of this
avalanche of good in the making within this mission to do good.
By the way, try: Chas.A.Graves for sim results Get hold of me through above; all input gladly accepted(please limit flames-ouch).

rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
3289 posts
10/15/2005 1:13 pm

Thank you, your_gypsy, for your kind words. I was preparing myself - especially because I am a single parent. The victim advocacy program (albeit volunteer) may be a better fit for me b/c I will have a lot more leverage on how much I can help a victim.

Today, I happend to talk with a manager at one of the hotlines located here in the Greater Austin area and she encouraged me to apply there b/c she has heard good things about how I handle hotline calls through the agency I have been working with. So, the possibilities are out there that will be far better than the situation that I was involved in.

In the meantime, I have set myself up to do various marketing, merchandising, and mystery shopping jobs, which should definately keep me busy. I am so very thankful for the preparedness that I have done prior to this event.

I have friends that look to moving out of town, and many times out of state, to start anew. Trouble is, you can only start anew so many times and you risk losing touch with your closest friends and family in the process as well. Hopefully, your brother will soon find a state that he likes!

Again, thanks!


rm_txrose4uNTX 57F
3289 posts
10/15/2005 1:05 pm

Thanks, sincitybrunette! I truly agree. Despite the preparation I had done for myself over the past few months, I still feel slightly shaken - but that just goes to show ya that, no matter how well prepared you are, there are things that will still send a shakiness through your body initially.

Today, I am taking it easy - after the Victim Advocacy training with the police department...and... tomorrow, I'll actually be able to go to Church after a year and a half of working 24hr shifts on Sundays. That will be a big, but welcomed change for me.


your_gypsy 51F

10/15/2005 7:45 am

tx... i feel badly for you. we've all been there is true. my brother right now is going through some depression and was recently given a "final notice" at his own job. mind you, he doesn't have kids and is not married, and makes a ton of money, but he has only been there three years and doesn't seem to "like" a job for longer than that, often quitting and moving to another state! one of these days he's going to run out of states. the point is, leaving is the obvious answer, but it's not the easiest or the best always, either. i have to support myself and my child so i have to bite the bullet and let the people i work for *always* be right no matter how ridiculous they really are, but if they are really abusive then i say god provides, and you will find another. some things are really worth struggling for. no you will never be appreciated until you are gone and they really need you but there is no true satisfaction in looking back on that. so i guess i can only say - you are in my thoughts and i hope you find another, better situation because you are truly special and have gifts that will be recognized someday.

sincitybrunette 55F
1668 posts
10/14/2005 9:33 pm

something tells me that you will be better off without this one. when things are that closed and not open to better ideas, cut it loose.....

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