Will the agony ever stop?  

rm_trulydivyn 53F
98 posts
5/30/2005 4:12 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

Will the agony ever stop?

I'm so tired sometimes of life being so hard on the heartstrings! I'd have thought after all of my experiences in the past I'd be more prepared to handle the heartache and loneliness of being a single broken hearted woman. My mind tells me I'm in a position to accept again, to let it happen again, to get involved again, more than just a casual sexual encounter...it's easier if I don't think about falling in love, or continue being in love, or just not feeling love...when I think of the reality, and look at myself from the outside, like someone else would see me, I see this pathetic Wonder Woman...my spandex is dripping in the blood of my wounded heart, my boot heels are worn down from running so far from the pain, my invisible airplane needs a complete overhaul and is showing signs of being replaced by a newer model, my hair needs a trim, my nails need a manicure, and I need a mental nap! Who'da thunk Wonder Woman could be used as a doormat? All I've ever asked of any man is to love me as I deserve to be loved, nothing more is required, nothing less will be accepted...I know this sounds like I'm looking for something impossible, but I don't think so...I know that eventually, some dark knight will sweep me off my feet, dust off my spandex, stop my wounds from bleeding, replace my boots, repair my airplane and get me a head to toe overhaul! Until that happens, I'll just keep taking life one day at a time, one battle at a time, one crisis at a time...for those that know me, I'm certain you can read between the lines, and know that this is one more phase of my day, a mood swing that deserved to be put in my blog, for me to read again at a later date and reflect on what I was going thru at this time...

rm_buffaloman1 73M
7 posts
5/30/2005 4:42 pm

It will stop just by moving on! trim your nails, comb your hair and get a drink. Refuel your jet and start the engine. Fly on over to me and we'll chat for a while. Together we can find new places to explore and things to do . Enjoy!!!!

pleasure20053 38M
1 post
5/30/2005 4:45 pm

Sometimes,well all the time love is very hard to find, even if you think you stumble across it, it is probably not love. I'm learning to take things one day at a time, and not look for something, I may never find. We only live once, and I want to start taking advantage of life, before it's too late

problklover 53M/F

5/30/2005 8:21 pm

Even Wonder Woman needs a break. She has a place to go to refuel, to reflect, to search her soul. I will not tell you to come to Me or go to others. I would tell you to think about what is important to you. What are your short term goals. What are your long term goals. While a hot sexual time will heal some of the pain. It will not repair all the damage. That comes from developing a level of communication with someone who can really see into your soul and knows what He has to do to help you along IF YOU require it. A good friend is someone who can sit down with you over coffee and listen to you scream and yell and bounce off the walls. In the end they hug you and give you the help that you may or may not want.

One person told Me that this is a sex site, not someplace to develop a friendship let alone a relationship. I disagree. You will find what you seek if you stay the course and do not let the “fast talkers” , “slick jive” blind you to what you want. Just take each day one day at a time. Many a dark knight will ride in. test them all , stay your course. Many will ride off not able to deal with the test. However there will be one. One is all that is needed. One who will fight the battles while you heal. One who wil fight by your side. One who will let you fight has He heals. One who will help you over haul the invisible jet (assuming that he can find it). He is there. Sometimes right under your nose. Other times right across the street.

You are no ones doormat. You are that only if you let it happen. Trust Me on this one. I have bee a doormat far too long, so I have learned to stand up for Myself. Sometimes it causes pain, but other times it does not.

hang in there


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