Life in the ICU this past week  

rm_texasmermaid 46F
1179 posts
6/18/2006 1:25 pm

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Life in the ICU this past week

I haven't been on line since, I think Tuesday the 13th. I have no idea what is going on in the groups. seems I have alot to catch up on and some that I dont...this cyber drama will take care of its self, with or without me. And it shall be without me. I am not going to be a part of it.

I am at work today for a few hours and will go check out the groups, and my mail.

Now to catch you up with what has been going on in my life.
My Mother is in ICU she has had 4 strokes in 3 weeks along with some other stuff.
She is getting stronger and we are taking it day by day. These where small strokes but they are a big red flag that a larger one is coming. I have spent the last 4 days by her side. I only left once to run home for an hour to grab some stuff and make arrangements for her dogs.
I cant explain how scary this last week has been, she has high blood pressure, but this week its been very, very low and her pulse and temp. are also very low. If you recall we lost my Grandmother, her Mother, last month. So this is like a replay of a nightmare. My Mom is only 58 years old, and I am so not ready for this. (not like we ever are to lose a loved one)
Yesterday her vitals started to go up and I gave her a shower, she seems to be getting stronger. So today I am here at work for a few hours then heading back.
For now I shall take care of my mother. And try to hold myself together.

b-well my friends and spread lots of love for me.

qyxx 59F
3267 posts
6/25/2006 10:37 am

Been there. It is so hard to see a loved one ill, you feel so helpless. But Godspeed to you and your mom.


rm_DandyDood 56M
8 posts
6/23/2006 1:17 pm

Godspeed for your mom. Darlin.

rm_sharksnsails 45M
738 posts
6/22/2006 11:38 pm

Very much warm love and hope for your strength.
My prayers and aloha are with you,.

sweet4jack 51M

6/22/2006 4:19 pm

>< Mermaid, I'm so sorry to hear about your Mom and wish there was some thing I could do for you. I lost my father at a young age due to complications from a car accident and it can get rough. God! your family is very similar to mine in a lot of respects. If you ever want to just unload on some one, I've been there so I'll understand. Just ask, Jack

Jack SO NOT in a box!

rm_texasmermaid 46F
738 posts
6/21/2006 11:41 am

well I met with the Doctors tonite and I can now say it has finally hit me big time.
After spending time with her, they talked to me after rounds. She is still going to have more test, they are now looking for any signs of cancer. I wont get into it all, I cant.
All I can say is I guess I was in some sort of fog last week in which I just thought she would get all better. Well she will get better but not all better. The doctors say her strokes have hit a part of her brain that effects her memory, thought process, speech, and a few more things.
So I heald it together until I got in my car then I lost it. I feel so ..... I cant explain it... but I feel I will never have my mom back the way she was a week and a half ago. I know I should be thankful that I still have her at all. But like I said I just thought she would get better and go home, with meds. And life would get back to normal. My Father is having the Doctors fax the reports to him (he is a Doctor they are divorced) he always explains medical terms to me very clearly in black in white. I keep thinking maybe her Doctors are just telling me the worse...
sharing this here with you all helps me . cause...shit I dont know ....

NGs_lady 64F
762 posts
6/21/2006 11:33 am

Love to you and your mother. I will also be saying a prayer for you both.


NGs_lady / Lady Stee

Springsluvr 61F

6/20/2006 12:09 am

Mer, you are in my thoughts. Be well, my friend. It's great to hear that your mom appears to be on the mend. Please know that there are a lot of us out here who care.

rm_texasmermaid 46F
738 posts
6/19/2006 8:05 pm

lots of kisses and hugs for all the warm positive well wishes!

She is doing better and I an hoping that she will be back home later this week. The have her on a resricted diet and she is raising hell about it *big ass smile* Never thought hearing my mother bitch would be so good to hear. lol

She has more test to go through, and thru it all she has never complained. I am in awe at how strong she is mentaly. I feel really greatful that she got the medical attention when she did, so that we can focus on her getting better phyiscaly. We are still crossing each bridge as we get to it.
I so needed all your kind words and on those quite nights sitting in her room I think about you all, and how we come to really care about each other, like an extended little family and it makes the difficult timesa little better...ya know?

jer6166 71M
35 posts
6/19/2006 2:14 pm

You are very brave to share tis with your friends. My prayers are with you.

turq6969 69M
553 posts
6/19/2006 1:16 pm

A Big Hug to you Mermaid ... Stay Strong ... Keep the Faith ... Know that you have many friends that care about you and your family.

Peace and Love,
Turq {=}

Peace and Love,

corvairguy 65M

6/19/2006 5:19 am

If you need to talk, you have my number.


PrincessKarma 43F
6188 posts
6/18/2006 9:17 pm

*warm supportive hug* Take your tme, dear one, your Mom is more important than blogging. *sends love and healing vibes*

The Big Bang was the mother of all orgasms.PrincessKarma

rm_SWSunset64 51F
3940 posts
6/18/2006 8:40 pm

I will keep you and your mom in my prayers.



rm_reisaree 42F
611 posts
6/18/2006 6:39 pm

Keep strong... Keep the faith... and Hugs to Mom, ok?..... Love you~ T.

PineyFolks 58M/59F

6/18/2006 4:13 pm

We wish the best for you and your mom. I am glad to hear she is doing better now. If you need anything please feel free to call. Huggles and kisses

Piney and neorn

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