I Can't Remember  

rm_texasgal1978 45F
287 posts
11/11/2005 1:37 pm

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I Can't Remember

I can't remember what caused me not to speak to someone I used to call a friend. I haven't spoken to this person in 11 years. We used to party together, go to bars and pick up guys, hang out, etc. Then one day we were no longer friends. Why? I can't remember why. I don't recall any big fight that we had. Could be we just outgrew each other. I really can't say. She has lived less than 2 miles way from me for the last 11 years and I never called or stopped by. I had sent her Christmas cards for a few years but stopped doing even that awhile ago.

I was surfing the Internet the other night and out of the blue I came across her name in a search result. I thought to myself, how odd, that can't be her. I opened up the web link and as I read it kept saying no, it can't be her. Even as I read her location, all the names of her family members and children I didn't think it was her. It couldn't be.

I was reading her obituary

I don't know why we didn't speak or what caused us not be friends anymore. I do know that after I read her obituary I cried for the friendship we used to have, I cried for the pain her family must be feeling, I cried for her children, and I cried for her loss. I also do know that I will never have the chance to speak to her one last time which is bothering me than I can understand at the moment.

rm_titsandtires 51M/41F
3656 posts
11/11/2005 7:33 pm

sorry for your loss. i know the feeling in a similar fashion. almost a year ago to the day, my mother sent me a clipping from the paper where i grew up. it was an obituary of a good friend i had in high school. he and his sister lost their lives on their way to a family get together when his car spun off the road. i hadn't talked to him in quite awhile, but i'm sure that if i could call him today on the phone, we could easily talk for 3 hours.

i am glad to see you made it through your hectic week. have a good weekend.


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