Riding the "Tennismaiden" roller coaster of life  

rm_tennismaiden 59F
2103 posts
1/27/2006 7:53 pm

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Riding the "Tennismaiden" roller coaster of life


I'm strapped in, harnesses smashed against my breasts holding me inside a steelcaged car screaming downward like an arrow shot from heaven to earth. My face plastered flat from the atmosphere pressing against my gravity and I'm....doomed. There is no thrill here!

These last couple of days have tested my endurance and I'm about to give it up....really throwing in the towel. I have loved coming onto this website, met pensive pedantic people to horrid half-witted humans.

I get my fair share of pick up lines...just the other day "you need a good ass fuck, want one?" from a man claiming to be a PHD/MD/Post Doctorate. I know there are good people here but frankly I'm getting tired of all the bull shit.

Back to the ole...."I'm not good enough" for some and others that have not a clue as to what I want and whom I'm looking for. And as most would say...stop looking and all will be revealed. Hell, even I give that advice to so many I've reached out to.

I'm dealing with medical nuisances, brain malfunctions and a host of off the chart occurances that one just simply cannot explain....except to say...I'm 48 349/365ths year old.And....?

The other day I was surfing the site, I came upon some fellow bloggers in my county and found a man who was pursuing me left a glowing testimonial on anothers profile shortly after our communication had ended without so much as skipping a beat.

Realty....we are all window shopping playing the field of "fuck and suck" shoving possibilites into an endless designer bag of dreams and fantasys. No one divulges the truth, we've got countless hook ups dangling in tandem, why even my dear friend down the street multi tasks at such a high level of intellect still sending and receiving while keeping a pace that should render him exhausted.

There are the tug of wars, playful banter, mind fucking all in the name of fun while snapping our receptors to a supreme level of eroticism and teasing our heads to red alert. My brain is lucky these days to wake and feed the damn dog, never less keep some well hung guy claiming to "jack hammer" me into submission someday.

For months now I've been keeping a friendship rather inconspicuous, I do not hide that fact. This solemn companionship has gotten me through many a dark night. But even within the confines of that safety there is unsteady terrain. I have told myself continuously this is my lesson, patience, openess, and loving soul.My monogamous nature is being tested, I breathe deeply ask the wills at be for guidance and try with all my might to will the ugliness of jealousy and guile from my heart. I'm getting there...really I am.

There comes a time when we just cannot muster enough stamina to ride the roller coaster of ambiguity, it's incessant arrival can throw even the best "tennismaiden" from her harness to land face down in the brownest thickest mud in the amusment park of life.

As always...."tomorrow's another day"

rm_molittle69 46M
117 posts
1/27/2006 8:40 pm

sounds like, maybe your expectations of what this site would provide, may have been obscured or overtly exagerated. There are other sites that are designed more for friendship/relationships, without all the undertones of sex.

p.s sorry to hear about your exaustion, if it's not fun, did I say fun, what I really meant to say was fun anymore then.....

good luck with this

sincerely

molittle


Deepthroat215 52M
328 posts
1/27/2006 8:42 pm

Wow...that was impressive. I think you summed up AdultFriendFinder for a lot of people. I can't imagine it being a terribly fullfilling venture for most. In fact, it's my theory there a good number of attractive women on here and the men just terrorize them.

You certainly can paint a canvass with your words...sorry it's not going well for you.


MyRealLoverOne 46M

1/27/2006 9:14 pm

Want to crawl inside my dark cave and hide out for a while?...not much light here but plenty of room.


_Safira 53F
11260 posts
1/27/2006 9:52 pm

*sitting in silence, and holding your hand*

This is my blog - Comes With Warning Labels. There are many like it, but this one is mine.

RECOMMENDED READING: A F F ... The Only Site For Me?


Hobbes1025 46M

1/27/2006 10:35 pm

"...stop looking and all will be revealed."

I've even given this tidbit of advice to myself. I know if I were to find "my special someone", whether it be on this sight, or in "the real world".., I would stop surfing this sight.

And when I say that I lost/gave away my virginity on June 30, 1993, and that I haven't done "it" since, it is the GOD's Honest Truth. Go figure!


hooks1952 64M

1/27/2006 10:58 pm

Speechless


rm_bigchoklatdk 45M

1/27/2006 11:39 pm

T.M.-- sorry about your relationship problems, but join the club....sigh. Just learn to have fun and not take things to serious. P.S.-- u look exquisite 4 a 48 year old! Holla.


roger_the_hound 57M

1/28/2006 4:45 am

Tennis Maiden,

You wrote:
Realty....we are all window shopping playing the field of "fuck and suck" shoving possibilites into an endless designer bag of dreams and fantasys. No one divulges the truth, we've got countless hook ups dangling in tandem, why even my dear friend down the street multi tasks at such a high level of intellect still sending and receiving while keeping a pace that should render him exhausted.

There are the tug of wars, playful banter, mind fucking all in the name of fun while snapping our receptors to a supreme level of eroticism and teasing our heads to red alert. My brain is lucky these days to wake and feed the damn dog, never less keep some well hung guy claiming to "jack hammer" me into submission someday.


"No one" and "all" leave no room
For others who come here to whom
Your words don't apply.
These gray shades defy
The black and white world you presume.

Nevertheless, you're a very talented writer and I enjoy your blog. This site provides insights into the truth in the most interesting places...

Ars longa, vita brevis.


WoodyDiaryKepis 62M
99 posts
1/28/2006 10:24 am

"Is this a social crisis, or just another shitty day for you? (with apologies to the Who)

Hopefully your medical "nuisances" are just that, and will resolve quickly and uneventfully. Brain malfunctions are a bit more difficult to deal with sometimes.

AdultFriendFinder is what it is-Like going to a virtual "club", and getting to meet the most wonderful and revolting people (sometimes they're the SAME person LOL!)-and from the privacy of your own home, yet! Why should this be a surprise, or even disturbing? Or are you fretting about your "inconspicuous friend" not delivering what he/she promised (or, more likely, not promising what he's delivered!)?

Rather laboring to "muster enough stamina to ride the roller coaster of ambiguity", one might direct one's effort at cultivating the self-confidence/esteem necessary to meet and enjoy the challenges that opportunity sends our way. Just don't leave us- TM, WE ALL NEED YOU!

"Nature always favors the hidden fault. "- (Murphy's Third Law)


HeardLankaMalls 55M
2925 posts
1/30/2006 5:09 am

Hugs (and whatever else you might need TM)
C


Hobbes1025 46M

3/18/2006 8:15 am

You say that someday my princess will come.. I hope I'm there to enjoy


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