Just Ducky....swimming in the love pond  

rm_tennismaiden 59F
2103 posts
12/18/2005 8:01 pm

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Just Ducky....swimming in the love pond

I could write this to your private email account or do the dreaded blog.....you knew it was coming, bare with me and let the fans rejoice in my confession.

There lies within me a reticence to accept that I cannot seek more. I know your history, not blinded by fairy tale beginnings or messy endings. Divulged truths of cerebral logic that could defy our odds of at the very least months if not years of joyous companionship.

Every occasion to let our hairs down reveals more ease, docile serene embraces and unspoken waves of pure acceptance. Neither of our needs meets the others...but the fit is splendid.

Of course I worry incessantly within while appearing cool as a cucumber without if I'm able to keep my adjoinment to a minimum. I watch you sleeping, murmering, tossing and long to envelope with more permanance. RED flags flailing wildy screaming "don't get too comfortable here Laur". The visit might be brief and costly to my need for co-dependancy. But Damn if it doesn't fill my void on some perverted level....

There isn't enough will to change the chronicle's of time, your temporary alliances have come and gone, I'll be just another statistic. Wars might be easier than ever getting you to fall in love someday. And why in hell would I think I could be worth your loving? I have no magical spell to cast....no petite scientific Harvard credentials. I'm a decent find for these parts but not rare enough to enrapture exclusivity.

Meantime....secure at present. Who would have thunk I could enjoy a man attached to unattachments? I know better than to demand stuffy logic liason's restraining you from the life you've come to know. There is a quaint comfort of syncopation, two beats coordinating famously. But somehow that works....miraculously!

The calm quiet awe of being near is enough if I can do more.....please ask.

With adoration and gratitude,

Tennismaiden


HeardLankaMalls 55M
2925 posts
12/19/2005 4:32 am

Nice!


WoodyDiaryKepis 62M
99 posts
12/19/2005 9:46 am

Oh MY! Where were YOU this weekend? -N.

By the way, GREAT dimples!

"Nature always favors the hidden fault. "- (Murphy's Third Law)


Plano69 54M

12/19/2005 10:11 pm

Wow! Nice a.. dimples!


EludeAbaciTeats 60M

12/20/2005 5:42 am

wow....smart and beautiful....extremely refreshing!!!


Agent4Sure 61M  
50 posts
12/20/2005 9:38 am

So insightful, and we haven't even met yet!


kryztoph908 59M

12/21/2005 11:50 am

Carrie Bradshaw -- Eat your heart out!


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