Forgiveness, the choice we make  

rm_tennismaiden 59F
2103 posts
1/7/2006 9:19 am

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Forgiveness, the choice we make

This blog is dedicated to a friend whom I shall refer to as "T Bone" ( sorry my son came up with that phrase) Humor is still essential for carrying us through even the darkest of times and I still chuckle every time my 24 year old spews that symbolic play on words.

For the past few days there has been a tug of war in blogland, posting, reading, checking back frantically,anxiety that our identities will be revealed and lastly honoring each other with intelligent grace. I have not gotten a response from you as of yet....I understand your reasons and I too feel your pain.

Forgiveness is offered to you with all the genuiness of my being. I'm not vendictive, angry,or spiteful...I am humble.I've been down this path so often I should feel it's arrival before it stares me in the face. But I am human, kind, gentle and loving.

My wisdom has been tested over these past years by trial and error, what I've learned immeasurable. You are not at that juncture of your tender new footing, testing reawakened senses and balancing on a scale that weighs heavily on your soul. But you will discover those choices made are not always the ones meant for you to embrace. Nothing in life is definitive and the decisions we make irreversible giving us bigger "heart and soul" then we can possibly imagine.

There is no shame in bleeding, not having answers or ever returning to admit the wrong choice had been made. We live we learn we evolve we love. Each new companion enters, stays for a bit, then leaves, a constant search for perfection never ending. But there is no perfect scenario/tingling/chemistry....if we get even part way there it is heaven. All unique and different with colorful nuances of variation.

I inhale the seasons of change in my calendar as I do my companions, each offers me a new leg of the journey, and each time my check list adjusts, grows and flourishes to suit the yearning my heart and head desires.

I do wish you well my "side of beef" (intended adoringly)Do not punish yourself for being human, that is your destiny....

With love, "Tennismaiden"

rm_anacortes 74M
2850 posts
1/7/2006 3:45 pm

Oh dear Maiden,

To forgive is one of the most blessed activities..

You can forgive whomever you desire to give your grace.

You are thoughtful and passionate in your analysis; and surely becoming enlightened.

However, when you look in the mirror will you be as kind with the flaws there that to you seem to grow...or atleast, not fade away fast enough.

Have you ever wrapped those arms of yours around your own familiar trunk and been able to look clearly in that enemy mirror and truly say, "I love you.. you beautiful Goddess".. I hope so and would smile.

mackjohnny69 59M

1/7/2006 6:32 pm

Know one said life would be easy. We learn from our mistake and in doing so gain wisdom. But we must move on and keep on learning. Let what you are looking for find you. You'll know when it's right.

toothysmile 50M
16515 posts
1/7/2006 11:38 pm

Hmmm... Very cryptic and yet very clear...
You have my best wishes...
And perhaps a warm hug?...

LadySucksss 70F

1/8/2006 5:26 pm

The journey is what fun and we need to keep our destination in our minds and hearts....we will eventually find what it is we are searching for and what we need in our may take many, many relationships and friendships along the way but this makes our journey so much more fun! Some days I wonder if I will ever get to my destination of a loving relationship that is ALL I will need and want without looking for more..........

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