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long time no hear
long time no hear
well,its been awhile since I last wrote anything on here.Have not had anything exciting to talk about.Started a new job a month ago which I do not like......don't get paid worth a shit.Bowling season is over,no more leagues or tournaments for awhile........the next one is in texas in the last week of june.I bowled like shit this year........210 was my highest average ( compaired to 218 last six years).I am hoping that next year will be better.I think the problem was that after my dad died I lost interest in bowling,I no longer found it enjoyable ( dad and I used to bowl together all the time and on leagues and tournaments and we would sit for hours and talk about bowling,I made him proud of my bowling......when he was younger,he was asked to turn pro by dick weber ).I miss him .Well,dating is not going well either and I am having trouble lossing weight....I hate being fat!!! Noone wants to date a fat guy.I am feeling so alone lately,I hope I snapp out of it soon but I do not see that happening anytime soon.I have thought about ending it,but not while my mom is still alive,she means the world to me.Oh well,lets see what May will bring.
5/7/2006 3:44 am
Not every day is a rainy day!!! Every cloud has a silver lining....as they say !!!
I also get days like that....nothing goes right, everything is a hassle. Can't be bothered with myself, let alone anybody else. Don't speak to me, coz I'll SNAP back at ya !!!
But then come sunny days....everything seems different !!!
I'm really sorry bout your dad. I lost my grandma a few years ago, and I still miss her like crazy. She was the only person I was close to, as she brought me up.
Don't worry about a few extra pounds. Real friends will love you for WHO you are....not WHAT you are.
Try and think of positive things in your life....it can only get better !!!!
Take care hun
5/7/2006 4:34 am
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5/18/2006 9:20 am
Hey buddy! Darn right long time no hear. How is your leg?|
No we'll here none of this ending it stuff. Remember, if you can, that when you get in that state of mind that that is just what it is, a state of mind. One that will pass.
OK, now about that fat guy stuff. Look around at the couples you see. Not the ultra-awsome-hardbodies on TV but real life people. You will see men and women of all sizes together. We are always hardest on ourselves. Personality and confidence go a long way. A woman I know, who is heavy and probably always will be has such a dynamic personality that the weight doesn't seem to be an issue. Married an average man.
You can do it.
Try to come back more often and let us know how you are doing. It can be good therapy. A good influx of positive energy. We all need that from time to time.
I'll tell you my self image and confidence has gotten much better as a result of this site. Wander around the blogs and put in a few comments and check out the responses you get. You'll get some positive feedback on your thoughts and feelings and that can do wonders. You'll find others in your situation. It's great not to feel all alone. It will take a lot of work and time but getting into the blogging community can lead to some great friendships. You may meet some folks eventually. And one of these may be for romantic reasons. It's good to have friends.
Good luck mate.