rm_spatsagain 60M/60F
7 posts
4/4/2006 12:46 pm

Today....when I stop to think about it............

Today my head is pounding, my pulse is elevated, my nerves raw from their rigorous workout.
Today I feel as though I have been beaten and admonished for having faith and living that way.
Today I am mad at God but will hold my temper to see what his response to my anguish will be.
Today I use all my strength to remain positive and create no expectations.
Today I am grateful for a bitter lesson that could have been far more cruel.

Today I get to hug my teenage son, as he would not have let me in some time, and he hugs back.
Yesterday he would not have reached for me.
Today he asks me questions about the validity of his own suddenly urgent feelings.
Yesterday he had little use for my opinions on the way of the world.
Today he shares his fears of mortality.
Yesterday he was invincible.
Today he feels a duty to care for his friends.
Yesterday friendship was carefree.

Yesterday I looked into the eyes of my true love to see fear and despair.
Yesterday I watched a mother's love transcend her anger.
Yesterday I could not be a safety net to catch spirits as they fell.
Yesterday I could not be the umbrella that kept those I love protected from a cold rain.
Yesterday I was reminded of the strength I love in my woman.
Yesterday I watched as my rebellious child needed the comfort of his Mother and Father.

Yesterday I was blessed because my son and his friends more than survived a potentially
deadly accident.
Today I was blessed once more, reminded while looking at the twisted metal that could have been
the vehicle of their demise, that what I earn can in no way be compared to the gifts that I have been given.
Tomorrow I will be blessed yet again as long as I get to see the faces of my family,
and feel the love that abides here.

elysianpleasure 47M

4/9/2006 3:21 pm

Nice post... I have had similar todays, yesterdays, and tomorrows.

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