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Living without Love
Living without Love
no family to lean on... no place to call home.. no one to talk to...no one to understand...
scared to speak...not one single friend...
so far from the people who know you...
so close to the people who dont.
just want to run to them...but so much pride you know you wont.
breaking down inside with so many words left unsaid...the one person you knew the most
can no longer be read.
trapped inside a life...almost feels sureal,
but this is reality;
and today this is how i feel.
strugglling with my new best friend
which is now paper and a pen.
cant even be honest while im writing
scared to read what i wrote.
trying to live like this just wanting to learn to cope and move forward.
harder and harder it gets every day...
to think what i want - I know what I want but can't have,
and speak what i want to say...dont want to fight or argue so tired of all loniness.
cant deal well with stress you have caused,
my hearts to fragile...tears falling so fast i cant win.
my minds yelling be strong...but i cant hold it in any longer, I have finally faced the truth and and i am trying to deal with the five stages
of grieving.. and we all go through it.
on the days when you do appear, some filled with silence, others with your anger filled outbursts, still others when you act as if nothing is wrong.
its tearing us apart and hurting my heart theres only so many chips it can take
untill it is a totall break theres already some there so please dont take to long
dont turn our realtionship into another sad song
7/26/2006 11:35 am
It's like you were reading my mind when you wrote this, sort of... at the time you wrote this, you couldn't have known that I would be thinking these same thoughts later... neat!|
7/26/2006 11:56 am
I know NOTHING about your personal situation, so keep that in mind.|
But it SOUNDS as if it's time to end your relationship.
I know that that is a very hard thing to do. And that hanging on always seems better than the unknown.
Do whatever you FEEL is best for you right now. Do NOT worry about if it IS the best thing or not.
Just prepare yourself should things go bad. It sounds as if it might.
It's a horrible place to be. We've ALL been there before.
But you WILL survive this.
7/26/2006 8:14 pm
I recommend the blog angelofmercy5 for ya. Lots of real people there that can identify with your current mood... There's also happy, smart-assed comments posted there by MEEEEE!!!! A little sumpm-sumpm for everyone.|
Welcome to Blogland! (Hug'n'friendlySmootch for ya)
8/17/2006 3:59 pm
I like your message. If you need to talk with someone (no strings attached) just drop me a note. I can meet you almost anywhere you want. I'll even pay for the coffe (or whatevere else you want to drink).|
8/19/2006 6:49 am
Your prose is very moving. I would really like to read more of your writings. Do you have any more?|
6/12/2008 8:16 pm
just read your blog and it moved me so much..i thnk those of us the have had something that makes us feel this way in our life can understand.don't know how you are now..but i can only tell you from my personal experience there is great peace after so much pain and happiness is out there.would love to talk sometime.|
6/14/2008 2:34 am
For some reason, I can't get to your blog. I can only get to this one post.|
Thank you for your comment. That was so sweet.
I do hope everything is much better now. We live and learn.
6/14/2010 10:18 am
I'm too dark right now to address the content|
I am struck by the delivery
the words, and recuurent rhyme...
I have to ask...
is it in the bacground...
if it is....
what was it?
I know....an unfair question.... ignore it easily if need be.
But I know I have done this...