Post con self dissection  

rm_smosmof2 67M
963 posts
8/6/2006 5:59 pm

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8/12/2006 2:05 am

Post con self dissection

Sitting in Sexydisaster's living room, reading posts and now posting. Can't stay on long, 'cause others need to use this laptop.

I'm rediscovering my tendency to disappear into the background and watch everything going on. Then I never know how to enter when I need/want to, except by making smartass comments from the peanut gallery.......

I'm highly conscious of not wanting to intrude on anything else that's going on. A subconciously deliberate distancing effect.

They all seem to like me well enough. I've had some wonderful conversations this weekend, and there are a lot more sf fans then I expected to find at a gathering of this size (@ 40). I keep trying to figure out what the social order is, and find a comfortable place to fit. Found one for a brief moment......

Clearly, I must be the one creating the distance, even if I can't see what I could do differently without making a fool of myself. (Odd that for someone with such a generally low opinion of myself, that I should have such a fear of making a fool of myself, but there it is...)

It's been fun... I hope I've sufficiently expressed my appreciation and affection for all those involved.

rm_PurryKitty2 48M/49F
9753 posts
8/6/2006 6:48 pm

We love you sweetie.

Wish I would have been there and we could have chatted.

Purry {=}


rm_smosmof2 replies on 8/11/2006 9:18 pm:
That makes two of us....

economickrisis 54M

8/6/2006 6:50 pm

Mate, us blokes who are full members of the peanut union applaud yer efforts

rm_smosmof2 replies on 8/7/2006 4:04 pm:
The American term is "peanut gallery". (A throwback to the "Howdy Doody Show" that most people on this site are waaaaay to young to remember....)

rm_saintlianna 45F
15466 posts
8/6/2006 6:56 pm

Your just shy and have low self-esteem in a large group situation. I am the same way

rm_smosmof2 replies on 8/7/2006 4:07 pm:

You have now exceeded my capacity for suspension of disbelief.....

You? a wallflower? Tell you what, we need to get together sometime so we can hide out in the shadows together.....

curiousinlorain7 59F

8/6/2006 7:21 pm

I just would really like to hug you right now

rm_smosmof2 replies on 8/7/2006 4:08 pm:
Well, thank you for the thought, anyway.....

HBowt2 58F

8/10/2006 3:38 am

Sometimes we think too much instead of just going with the flow....

rm_smosmof2 replies on 8/10/2006 3:47 am:
I've never found a way to shut that part of me down....

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