Hopes and Dreams?  

rm_smosmof2 67M
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4/19/2006 12:44 am

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Hopes and Dreams?

I wrote these paragraphs in a letter to my "friend" in Russia this morning. By the time I had finished the next paragraph, I realized that I had captured the essence of why my last relationship failed.

I have no hope and dreams. Hopes and dreams require money to realize, and I have none. I don't even make enough right now to pay off my monthly bills.
All of my savings were spent last year when I was out of work. Houses here are very expensive. At least 8,235,528 rubles. I will never be able to own a house again. For me, hopes and dreams inevitably lead to disappointment. I can not hope or dream for anything I do not have. This was a problem that I had with my last girl friend. She kept talking about having things that we would never be able to afford. I could not share these wants. I thought that she did not understand the enormous cost of what she wanted, without the money to even consider being able to do it. She said I did not support her emotionally, that I should encourage her dreams. I do not understand why I should encourage someone to dream of something they can never have, when that will only lead to disappointment and discouragement. I don't understand why this is a good thing.

The closest thing I have to a hope is that I hope that one of these days I will be able to again find a woman who will be interested in having sex with me. But I am old, and I now think it more likely that money will fall out of the sky that I can use to buy a house.

curiousinlorain7 59F

6/24/2006 9:41 pm

amen brother...my only dream is of a bleak cold dark empty future, one that some would call nightmare...if this is my dream you don't want to know what my nightmares look like

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