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I'm going to go ahead and start this blog thing, though I doubt I'll have the time to post on a regular basis.
I'm having an absolute BLAST! The initial goal of reinducing lactation is still before me, but in the process I'm learning so many new things about myself; not the least of which is that I am most assuredly bisexual.
Had my first adult experience being with another woman over the weekend. What a treat! Looking forward to more exploration with her, as well as others.
I am definately on the money with my breastfeeding fantasy. The sensation of my whole nipple being drawn into the mouth, hands cupped on my breast to "coax" the milk, just closing my eyes and feeling the ryhthmic pulse of sucking, tongue thrusting my nipple against the roof of the mouth, then sucking.... the depths that reaches is unbelievable. And I'm not even producing milk yet! Can't wait until I can blog about feeling the milk flow through my breasts and out my nipples.
Been trying to take the "natural" approach, but becoming quite impatient. If I don't at least get a few drops soon, I'm going to swallow my pride and employ a lactation consultant. So afraid I will offend because I'm approaching it from an erotic perspective. Lie? I suck at it. I do happen to know a lady, though, that I might be able to trust with the truth.
Lamenting my financial constraints as it prevents me from purchasing a hospital grade breast pump. I tried the less expensive "just as good as" models 11 years ago to no avail. The suction just wasn't strong enough or something. I have been doing a great deal of "messaging;" mimicking the motions of when I used to hand-express. And have discovered that I can actually suck my own nipples, though it ends up being upside down. Have no idea what effect that has on coaxing lactation, but it still feels good.
Well, that's all for now.
8/11/2006 2:16 pm
I have some experience with inducing and would be happy to share with you if you are reluctant to talk to your lactation consultant friend. Email me if interested.