It is easily settlin' in.  

rm_sharksnsails 46M
697 posts
1/17/2006 11:55 pm

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It is easily settlin' in.


Joy and Rapture.
Slowly my realization that I did the right thing seperating (wishing we could finalize the divorce) with my ex.
This painfull slow understanding is not the product of very thuroughly ramming my head at the dispair of losing her and worse that she has takin my children from me.
It is the truth that I am slowly allowing myself to see; that she loved the other guy (My sons biological dad) more. She actually warned me of this when I was trying to get back together with her, but I told her that I was o.k. with it. That I would try to win her love back everyday, yet after over a year of trying to win her heart to me I did realize that trying to win somebody's love is a farce. One that should be run from. They either love you or don't. and if they love somebody else more but are settling for you, then put it in the "don't" box, and run like hell. Run your ass off.
The reason is because no matter how bad it hurts (and it does) to know that this person whom you dedicated yourself to doesnt truly feel the same, the real damage is in the loss of time that you cheat yourself out of by hangin on. I know she hangs on to him, much as I did to her. Maybe she'll read this and understand the folly of it. I doubt it. ha ha.
The loss of time that you could be spending with somebody that you really love, and that truly loves you back. The "perfect fit" person. That's what you lose by staying in the wrong relationship. I realize now that it is possible that a better fit is out there. That there may be more than one perfect fit woman, with whom I can be exceedingly happy. I had in my dispair not realized that the thing brighter than the dispair, if you'll let it shine is hope. All you need for hope is the willingness to accept it.
I am begining to accept that I very well may find love and happiness again.
It is possible that the situation with my children may take favorable turns also.
There is nothing wrong with hope.
I hope you who read this are well, I have love for all my brothers and sisters in the world, even those, who live in ingorance (as might be us all).
sharks

rm_Blue_Leopard 43F

1/18/2006 12:09 pm

*HUG*


rm_sharksnsails 46M
738 posts
1/18/2006 6:34 pm

this was supposed to be a happy post Princess, but upon rereading it I realize why you give me big HUGS on it.
ok, so I guess it is a bit bleak sounding, but it was supposed to be something like hope springs eternal, or there is always hope. truth is I am really trying to be a happier blogger. Ill have to try again.
big smiles
sharks


Fox4aKnight1 43F

1/18/2006 6:56 pm

hugs Sharks .....


SaucyNSassy 39F

1/18/2006 11:12 pm

You have no idea how much this blog got to me... Thanks for being so open and sharing with us...
"Sassy"


rm_Blue_Leopard 43F

1/19/2006 1:23 am

It was a happy hug, darlin' I'm glad to see you climbing out of the hole at last


rm_sharksnsails 46M
738 posts
1/19/2006 5:19 am

Foxy, gummies always, my life situation and outlook are improving dear, I hope that yours will take as many good turns, also I know that you have been greatly discouraged by some of the guys you have met this last year, but I assure you that most of the community here is worth while, and hope you stay around.

My newest visitor SaucyNSassy, let me tell you this about her blog, some of that blog is intensly hot, not like tabasco, but like daves insanity sauce. about a 9.995 on the BOING scale (only alanis ever got a 10 and that was only when she was playing god for Kevin Smith).
thanks for visiting, I look forward to reading more of your blog SnS, but will have to do so in small doses as my tamer heart is not accustomed to that level of whoa.

sharks


SaucyNSassy 39F

1/19/2006 2:06 pm

Shark, you are SO good for my ego. I'm really glad you like my blog! I try to entertain...lol. However, sometimes I am just sooo boring... Your tamer heart, huh? hmm....
"Sassy"


rm_sharksnsails 46M
738 posts
1/22/2006 10:24 pm

Thanks Angelique,
I warmly accept your bright blessing, and acknowledge the great spirit from which all things emminate.
I apologize if this is forward, but I find your pic very sexy!
Thanks for coming by I hope you come back around, I will be back to yours, and hope we become friends.
Sharks


rm_sharksnsails 46M
738 posts
1/29/2006 10:17 am

Shy, I am happy that all though I am going through hell, I don't seem to have stopped. once you get to the middle of hell, all roads lead out.
thanks for the hug
aaron


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