Have faith Dad.....  

rm_sharksnsails 45M
697 posts
6/2/2006 6:32 pm

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6/5/2006 10:32 pm

Have faith Dad.....

That was all that the last email I got from my daughter said. Yet it is so much to come from an 11 year old. I was asking her to forgive me for going back to work in the oil fields, I explained to her that the bills were piling up, that I had to be more financially secure, and that I was sorry. Someday I will get to spend time with my daughter as freely as my friends. I just have to have faith in someday. It's hard to have faith in someday, when so many todays are lonely. I wonder if my hesitation to love is a product of this fight. I am sure it is. Life is wierd, the demon wars were over so quick, I would never have thought it. Not a series of battles and dramas but an explosion and then wreckage. And I and a couple others remain only slightly wounded. Strange indeed. So many others mortally wounded, or at least severely maimed. I try to be a good person. I try to attend my spirit to the beattitudes, I think that's what saved me this time. I came closer than you'll ever know. I do have faith. Faith is scary.

I hope you are as well shielded as I, I wish every one was. Probably survivor guilt. lol



6/2/2006 8:04 pm

Don't wait too long darlin'. These years are precious right now and before you know it, she'll be all grown up and living her own life. Unfortunately, life isn't easy and neither are the choices we have to make. Do what you have to in order to be financially secure darlin', but hurry. I wish you the best. Take care.

rm_sharksnsails 45M
738 posts
6/3/2006 4:36 pm

Welcome BCT, thanks for droppin' by, certainly what scares me is the fact that time passes mercilously and these pressous years are slipping through my fingers.....

Dys, hi thank you for your ongoing support and thoughts. I frequently use your "non entities" post from a while back when dealing with people and situations where I am angry.

have to work right now, Ill be around though, at least out here on the oil rig, I am kept busy and away. to things to keep me out of trouble.

TabithaElectra79 37F

6/4/2006 1:37 am

Very wise words...

Take care

rm_sharksnsails 45M
738 posts
6/4/2006 5:45 pm

Yeah, my daughter is a wise woman.

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