Temporary Insanity  

rm_sexypinay16 44F
389 posts
10/20/2005 10:14 pm

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Temporary Insanity

Well, I am talking about my biggest stupidity yesterday. Jealous ..silly ..crazy..i jot it down here. Why? I dont know , maybe lonely people like me gets so vulnerable at times that you have these hallucinations of liking someone just because they care. But yesterday I was in a dreamland while im making my blog and my crazy mind is thinking of him. But after I finished my blog I went to read some blogs and come across with his and read some thing that woke me up from my crazy dream. Lol..im a lunatic..and thats how I come up with that blogyesterday. Its a Tmporary Insanity. Maybe Im too tired ..fed up and lonely.
Got home at 8 pm and still thinking of my perfect stranger. I was beginning to think of him and im being a silly girl. I dont like it. I dont like to feel this way to anyone. It's not right. I have come across with men like him on this site and he makes me scared. After a stormy marriage I cannot afford to get involved and be hurt. I m so tired of crying ..of being treated like a doormat and end up licking my own wound. I won't go through those ordeals again.Perfect Stranger doesnt know and I dont have plans of letting him know. And im just one the many images that he come across with in his very busy life. This is just a temporary insanity. I went to log here for a therapy..so I could pour all my souls and heart's content. Well, and to practice my writing skills...and nothing more. I must bear that in mind. Mind over matter... I must forget of my perfect stranger. He might freak out or he will just laugh at me . I dont like that.

My life is for my kids and my whole heart and soul will only belong to them forever.


Love..Faith ..and Hope..


rm_sexypinay16 44F
311 posts
10/24/2005 3:36 am

Hi Jim ,Im scared because I may not able to be a perfect woman or a better lover. I might hurt a person. Or I might not able to make him happy. Im afraid to get hurt too. But I know I mustnt be like this. I must love and be loved. And nver be afraid. Thanks for your concern Jim.

Love..Faith ..and Hope..


jim5131 55M
1296 posts
10/23/2005 11:19 pm

Hi Pinay...I HAD to come back and re read your blogs. Why do men like 'that' make you scared? Do you think all relationships end in disaster? Are you too afraid to start another for fear that your heart will break again?

I understand completely. I feel the same way.

I like the way things are: I have friends in Austin, but I have ladyfriends too far away to be close. Keeps me from falling in love. Protects the heart. Better that way.


rm_sexypinay16 44F
311 posts
10/22/2005 3:47 am

Hi Jim..I don't know the answer. Thats just a temporary insanity and my crazy imagination sometimes decieved me ...lol,..lunatic people are like that. Well why you have shorter comments now? Anyway thanks again . God Bless.

Love..Faith ..and Hope..


rm_sexypinay16 44F
311 posts
10/22/2005 3:38 am

Thanks asian . thank you for taking time to read my blogs. Your appreciation to my writings mean so much. I ve read yours too they are great. Wish I could write some great poems like you do. Maraming Salamat. God Bless You.

Love..Faith ..and Hope..


jim5131 55M
1296 posts
10/21/2005 9:28 am

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Pina?


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