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I know my posting are becoming very infrequent. I just haven't had all that much to say yet. Feeling the same... tired and frustrated and stressed out.
And that's the big problem. People probably read my blogs and see me as some dark and moody person, wearing nothing but black, hiding in shadows complaining about how terrible life is. That's isn't really me at all.
Not long ago some seemed surprised that I said I was tired and stressed. Even though this person knows what I'm going through, how hard I work, how I never have any free time, how my goals aren't being meet... apparently this all is going completely unnoticed. The exact quote was "these things don't show because you're usually so upbeat and are almost always smiling".
This is true I suppose. Than again "how are you?" is a greeting, not a question. It's always better to give a response, not an answer.
And besides, when it comes to creating something, the darker side of myself always dominates. I can' explain it. I was listening to Happy Go Lucky Me by Paul Evens. Ever hear it?
"Life is sweet
As sweet as honey
Happy go lucky me"
When I hear this song I always picture it with a subtle undertone of sarcasm and melancholy. I might record my own version of it someday.