She taught me to sew  

rm_rome211 60M
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10/4/2005 2:37 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

She taught me to sew


It's done. Signed. Sealed. Delivered. After my Sunday run, I got nice and tired. That seems to be my best time to do certain things that I don't have any interest in doing for what ever reason. For me it was signing those divorce papers. It is like signing away a document that states...You failed. I've never failed at what I put my heart and mind into...except this one. Since it takes two to make this decision, I must acceede to not being able to provide the emotional and physical needs of this lovely woman. We started out great but life took an unexpected twist for her body and her life with me. She got ill with a degenerative disposition. This triggered lots of anger, dispair, and frustration in her. After several years of trying to steer things towards the positive side of life, she, we gave up. I can't feel what she feels and she believes that the best way for her is for me not to be around her as she spirals downward. Having tried everything my resources provided and more, the smart people say that it is what she wants and nothing and noone will change her mind. It's the old, you can take a horse to water but you can't make him drink idea. Life can be strange at times. It felt strange when I saw the mail truck leave the post office right in front of me. We were on the same path...the highway. Just as we entered the entrance ramp, I felt a sense of relief.

Sew and sew, she goes
To mend the tear that'll alwasy show
it won't be long, it won't be long

burgundy_Blaze 59F

10/4/2005 5:19 pm

Most people who discover they have a life altering illness, often push the ones they love away because they feel like thier condition will lessen their appeal. With that, comes the emotion of "I'm not good enough anymore", "I'm not attractive anymore" and "How could he/she love me anymore" and the spouse feeling like nurturing is a chore they would love to express, if only given the chance.

Look at Chris and Dana Reeves. They hung in there, but there is one element that overomes all objections....true love and the money to deal with it. Without both in tact, there's lots of mail trucks pulling away with what we thought would be our lives.

Seeing as you stated "relief" was your end emotion...it's probably a good thing that postage was paid.


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