Thoughts of an uncertain future  

rm_reign692 40F
40 posts
7/9/2006 4:38 pm

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Thoughts of an uncertain future

My future is completly uncertain simply because I do not know what to do. I mean I have a boyfriend who I think I still love or better yet just care about who one minute is realy sweet and the next minute he is screaming at me calling me a whore ,a bitch and a slut and eventually hitting me and choking me on the living room floor all because i will not give him a head job. And yet the next day he acts like everything is fine and he is all honey this honey that.yet everything is not alright. AND I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO.Because then on the other hand I have an ex husband who wants his family back except he is an addict.And that would just be a bigger mess.Yet I still find that I am affraid of being alone, and wondering how to be alone because I have never not had someone to stand beside me.And yet in my heart I know he does not love me our my children other wise he would not hurt me or disrespect them. I just do not know if I am strong enough to stand alone and care for my kids or if I would just end up in another bad situation.

DougInCincy86 48M

7/9/2006 8:57 pm

Get out. Now. Before it's too late. Couldn't get worse, so you might as well leave him.

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