strange ramblings of a single guy  

DingyFlagsPorky 46M
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7/30/2005 4:29 pm

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strange ramblings of a single guy

Today I sit and try to collect my thougts on life. It has been a eventful week. Like many I didn't really have any plans and despite this sevral things poped up.

I recived to free tickets to see the Doors of 21st century , and being a avid Doors fan I went. Was also my first oprotuinate to see the new mts center. It is a very nice building, and something for Winnipeg to be proud of. I took a good friend of mine, one of the few friends I have in the city who has known me since a young age. HE is always hard to get ahold of , as he has a wife and a small child. As we walked though the arena looking for are seats, I saw sevral women that I know. Most I just know to see, I don't even think they know my name, and even one who reconisde me from this site. My friend looked at me and said , wow when did you become so popular with the ladies. The answer is never. Working for so long in the public eye, in a store that has been in the comunity for almost ever, I have gotten to know alot of people. I could tell by the look in hes eye, that he thought it was more, he was quite a ladies man in his time and is tall and very goodlooking. Once again appreance of my life and the reality of it looked vastly different.

There are few things that I ever truly wanted in life , and right now a wife and family are amoung the highest. Like many dreams it seems to be unatanable. Something that just falls into place for some many is something that I can't seem to grasp. There are many things that I can do , that the average person can't. Skills i have learned, or maybe they are talents I was born with. They don't make me any better than any one else, but the skill or talent of finding a mate is one that I sorely lack.

I was abit of a hellon several years ago, broke many hearts,and had many romatic aventures. When I settled down, people said it would not last , because I was a player. Yes I was a player , but in a game I had grown very tired of. When I settled down, I had eyes only for my mate, oh I admit I looked, but never touched. I turned down many offers of desrect affairs, beacuse I wanted to remain true to my mate.

Once again I find my self in the dating game again, and it scares the fuck out of me. What do I have to offer a women, many things. I not the worst looking guy in the world, I have alot of hair compared with alot of guys my age, a good body with nice shape, a house, a good job,and a cute little car. But it is what is inside of me that matters most, I have so much love to give and yet know one seems to want to take it.

I don't feel I'm standing looking at a mountain , with my hopes and dreams on its summit, but rather I am standing in a valley looking at that mountain, and I don't even know how to get out of this fucking valley, much less climb to the peak.

Oh well I rant again, my single mind , twisting and turnign on the same thought, till I don't know where it begins and ends. So many women in the world, ther must be one ment for just me. Is that to much to ask for? Or should I settle for being a boy toy untill my youth runs out,and then spend the rest of my life as a dirty old lonely man.

If ther is anyone out there with a suggestion, throw me a line, a life line if you will.

A simple farm boy in a complcated world, RavenJago

dippy12441 38F

8/3/2005 9:50 pm

It may suck to have to wait. But when you finally meet the "ONE". It would have been worth it. You have alot to offer. I can see it in your eyes. And see it in your thoughts. Sometimes, it might take others longer to see that in you.

bella_ 47F
4030 posts
8/4/2005 6:52 pm

I never knew you had a blog!

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