What a day...  

rm_philonymph 38M
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9/2/2005 10:06 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

What a day...


The best part of any test is the end. Halle-friggin-luia! You know the day will be a trying one when you wake up from a dream (nightmare?) of your newly ex-wife cheating on you and then proudly telling you it was with someone you despise. Thanks a lot, bitch. Thankfully it was only a dream. I know I shouldn't care, so why does it still hurt. I think I may start naming my demons, considering that no matter how many times I win the battle, they still come back for more. I don't think about suicide very often anymore, but the feeling still comes to visit every now and then. I know that this is a fight that I will always win (I understand the result of such a truly selfish action), so how do I carry this over to my battles with the others? Why can I resist the overwhelming urge to do my body in, and yet still be relativly powerless against my raging libido? An even better question, (knowing in my mind that it's possible) how do I bend these demons to my will? What use could they be to me when all they cause me now is misery? The quest continues.........

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