Turn the other cheek ?  

rm_nosecrets56 60M
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2/11/2006 1:15 am

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6/8/2006 9:20 pm

Turn the other cheek ?


Well the last few days have been heaven again...

She is communicating with me regularly and the conversations are more like the woman I knew when I spent 10 days with her in September...19 days during Christmas.

She is laughing again and telling me how I am the best man in her life, the only man in her life and that she is sorry that we have had a difficult time.

She couldn't remember breaking her promise to me so I couldn't resist bringing it up when she wanted me to make her a promise.

She was quiet for awhile denying then she cried as if she cared..I felt it came from her heart but part of thought...this is a set-up for some other sort of manipulation...

She said she didn't realize that she broke it even though she remembers telling me why she broke the promise...

I wasn't trying to hurt her, I just wanted to know if she had a conscience, if her heart was really open...

The thing about women is, I really don't think they know what they want long term...I think they think they know but I think they are more into the moment...

We spoke a lot from the heart and I also apologized for being a bit harsh and unforgiving in my emails...you women always get us guys to apologize even when we didn't do anything to apologize for...

I just don't like to be played with and lied to. If you want to chase other men, say so at least I know to move on. Don't be all you are the man for me, the man for life, my future then when you think I am not paying attention you are out with other men.

I mean even with your friends, it looks bad..it's no respect when you deny that it even happened and you know my friends saw you...

I want this woman in my life forever but I won't spend it looking over my shoulder seeing who she is spending time with when it should be me and her family...

She wants me to bring her Nana ( basically the person that does all the house chores and cooking). It sounds great because the lady can COOK some food...WOW!

But the bad side is, it continues to give her an excuse to use her "free time" unwisely...she is a mother and needs to be the mom...not duck it with a Nana...

ONE thing her mother and I seem to agree on
Always nice to score points with the possible Mother-in-law...

Then she tells me that we don't need to bring her right away, maybe for the wedding or when the baby comes...

She keeps talking about wanting a female baby with me no matter what it takes because she knows that is God's choice not ours.

Tomorrow is her Son's birthday and she wants me to call him early in the morning to be the first to wish him happy birthday....

..in the other part of my dark mind...I think maybe the guy that is with her tonight will be the first to say happy birthday...I get the pretend shot at it...

She didn't want to speak tonight and wanted to go to bed. She had a big day shopping with my money for all the itmes for a 30 children birthday party tomorrow at her mother's house..guess that could wear you out but I would be so wired that I would want to talk forever..

I know he is only going to be 3 but I can stop thinking about him now and it is nearly 1 am PST...I have to call in 5 hours, 9 her time.

She has been through so much and I have doubts...but I can't stop my heart from telling me to give her another chance....

...then of course the rational side tells me how many lies and broken promises are too much...will she bail on me when she gets to the states to run-off to this other American Guy that I know she wrote to..the cheap bastard and he is probably married then she comes back to me...and I send her ass home to Colombia.

The rational side says if she lied about these little things, maybe she would do it in front of me too...lie about going out for a drink after work with the co-workers, working late at the office...you know all those dark soap opera things....

..but the heart, and NOT as she says "HER DICK" says give her a chance...

..that's another thing she keeps talking to me about how much she likes my Dick. She says it is perfect for her in every way...

What man in his right mind wouldn't want to hear that....of course, how many guys fell for the fake orgasm thing too with a woman...I'm raising my hand, smile..

One thing is for sure, there is nothing fake about her in that department...you know when you hit the big "O" with her or even the tiny "O"...

I don't think in all of this that I am thinking with my dick....I feel like all my thoughts are from the heart, the soul and the mind for once.

I am just hard core deep in love with her....I can feel it....but where the hell is she in all of it?

Will us guys ever get a clue?

Happy Birthday to my Colombian Son! I wish for you to never have these same difficulties that your mother and I have had...I know you will but I hope I have a chance to give you advice that will help you.

I know I am going to love her and I think I just as well forget everthing prior to last week and give the chance to start over...

What me turn into a jealous over protective idiot that drives her away anyway in time...my luck...

horatio1815 46M/35F

2/11/2006 8:17 pm

it sounds to me like maybe you love her too much. it happens, trust me.as a woman answering this,i will tell you, we are the most fucked up creatures you will ever come into contact with most of the time,and the rest of the time we are experts at unwittingly destroying those we love, i'm sorry if thats harsh but its how i feel. dont be afraid to voice things to her, as i said we usually are unaware of what we are doing to you guys. good luck.xx


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