I forgave her but I still have my eyes open...  

rm_nosecrets56 60M
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2/22/2006 10:29 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

I forgave her but I still have my eyes open...


We have had several fabulous conversations and I feel the person I first met in Sept 2005 as well as Dec 2005, is back.

Every kind word she has said just makes my heart burn for her. I don't know if I am just that big of a sucker or what...

She makes me melt, with her care and the way she weaves her magic.

The way she says she loves me and wants to finish life with me...that she wants to have children with me and how lucky she is to have my love...my God..she just makes me feel so much a better person...

She talks about things that I haven't even talked about and hits the subject out of the park without any pitch from me....

...as much as I have written here, I have to say that if she IS NOT MY OTHER HALF...I do not know that I have one.

We understand each other and yet, she speaks better English than I do Spanish...but her English is not perfect...somehow I know what she is trying to say...

I never have felt that I needed someone to complete me...I never felt I needed someone to make life worthwhile....I never felt I needed someone the way I need her..

I feel so much a part of her family...I speak regularly to her parents and I feel like I am part of something I have never known.

I speak to her every day, I write her passionate emails each day and when she finally has a chance to go she spends an hour to reading what I wrote.

She tells me I really give my heart to her in every email and she just loves it.

My day really does not seem complete until I make that late night call...I hear her soft sweet voice speaking words to me that the greatest screenplay writer, or actress in the world could speak...

It comes from her heart and I can feel her soul speak to me...I can feel her love and I am a damned fool to give up on her.

I can not pass this by..we have all the documents in route to an Immigration Attorney because I don't want this messed up or stretched out any longer...

I am planning a secret trip to see her for a short time, possibly a make believe wedding ceremony..because if we go the real route it screws up the Fiancee Visa here...and the spousal visa takes longer these days..

It also takes time to get the "official" documents without being in country for at least a month.

...she says it doesn't matter she just wants to spend life with me and I would like to share a wedding with her family...she has been married before and says she wants this for me..

What a woman...and if she is playing me...I just can't believe anyone can be that good at deception with this kind of heart....

BOTTOM LINE IS === I LOVE HER VERY MUCH!

Life isn't life, unless I can have her in it with me.

Thanks for reading and I am not sure I will be back to blog or not...

I feel selfish but I want to keep all the good stuff to savor on my own...sorry.

I can't describe it so it wouldn't help.

Take care of yourselves and the people you love because nothing makes you feel better or worse!

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