rm_mzhunyhole 65F
60250 posts
5/29/2006 12:38 am

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I know Memorial Day is all about those who have fought for our country and gave their lives to make this the good ole U S of A.I have read so many wonderful tributes this weekend.I have thought about the families who have lost loved ones and remembered those in prayer that have loved ones still fighting for us over there now.

Memorial Day to me also is a time to remember other loved ones I've lost.I go to the graveyard and put fresh flowers on the graves of those that are here.I have lost a 19 year old brother to a serial killer that still sits on death row after 20 years.My mama died at 40 and my daddy at 53.Another brother died of cancer at the age of 12.He was the bravest person I know.

But today I want to tell ya all about my sweet husband..husband number 2.We was only married 11 days when he died.

I never told that boy I loved him.Not one time.But he married me anyway.He told me he loved me enough for the both of us.His name was Teddy Jackson,I just called him..T J.I was a big ole fat girl,but he liked me right fine from the get go.He wasn't much to look at either,but he had a heart of gold and he loved me and my kids like crazy.

Above all,he wanted us to have a home after all we'd been through with my abusive husband.We didn't have jack shit.

So the weekend came for us to move into our new home.We were soooo excited and happy.My son,17 then and all his friends helped and in no time we were moved in.T J was sooo proud of our lil yellow house sitting in the middle of its 3 acres.

That night,he could hardly sleep after we got all moved in.We was talking about everything.He kept telling me he was cold.Finally,after talking me into getting on top of him to keep him warm,we fell asleep like that.

The next morning,I will never forget how he looked when I woke up and saw him standing there in the bedroom doorway.In his ratty blue robe,wearing his favorite leather jacket over top of it,clearly naked underneath cause the belt of the robe was coming undone.Puffing away on his ciggie,talking all excited again,making big plans.

His friend Jeff was on the way over.They was going to pick up his dogs.He had pit bulls.Lordy,how he loved them dogs,Wrangler and Sam.I was gonna start unpacking,they wouldn't be long.

Soooo,him and Jeff pull out in his prized Toyota that bear plates saying T J'S toy.In just a matter of minutes I hear his truck come flying back up the driveway and the door slam back open.He runs in..dips me way down..kisses me really good and deep and theres no tommorrow.tells me he loves me..never forget I love ya..Says..ya won't ever forget that..will ya??..Then he hugs me like he's gonna break my ribs.

I ask him..whats that for???..He tells me..he doesn't know..he just wanted to come back and tell me he loves more time.

Twenty minutes later..the phone rings..his friend at this lil hospital..I don't ask no questions..I'm gone...on the way.

When I ask the nurse to see him..they say..just a feels like 30..

A man in a suit..comes up to me and asks me..are ya the family of the deceased?

HELL NO!..I ain't got nobody here deceased..mister!

As he walks away..I realize..I'm the only person in this lil hospital..he is talking to me.

I just push this door open to where I think my T J might be..and he is..He's had a massive heart attack..They said his heart like exploded..he died in seconds..he was 28 years old.

I always wondered if he knew...

I was soooo glad we had that last kiss like that.Now I never let anyone leave my house without a hug or a kiss.That boy left me a wonderful gift.

I really wanna tell ya all..never leave each matter what..At least tell each ya love each other.It might be the last time ya see them.It happened to me...for real..not in no movie or romance never part with hating words people..please..I beg of ya..OK?

Do ya all get mad easy..are ya all the kind to go off like a firecracker??

Or does it take a whole damn lot to get your feathers ruffled??

When someone comes along,gonna give ya some love and affection,I say..Get it while ya can.

rm_LoyalCumpany 46M
3204 posts
5/29/2006 12:43 am

Holy shit. That is heartbreaking.

Gonna make me call everyone in my family tomorrow.

I am JoJo the Circus Boy!

n0tatalker 39M

5/29/2006 12:44 am

that is g0nna make me fuckin cry...

damnit! i was really feelin' g0od t0o! i'm g0nna have to kill s0methin' n0w... where'd that puppy go?

LustyTaurus 48M  
21253 posts
5/29/2006 12:51 am

That is one of the saddest and yet most romantic stories I've ever heard MzHuny...thankyou for sharing that...what a powerful lesson.


brute472 74M
3480 posts
5/29/2006 1:07 am

You did it again told your story like no other and shit it made me cry.
What a comfort that last kiss must be now, and I promise to kiss my family more often thanks to you.

GoddessOfTheDawn 105F
11238 posts
5/29/2006 1:21 am

life can be so damn cruel....

at least you did have that last kiss, and yes, too many don't....

Balibabe19 41F

5/29/2006 1:43 am

Mz Huny I have been reading your blog now for awhile and while I have nothing in common with you I feel as tho you know me and my heart can ache so much sometimes....when i read what has happened in your life it makes me feel I can open up like that day...thanks for being exactly who you are....

TabithaElectra79 37F

5/29/2006 1:59 am

Awwww that is so sad but really amazing at the same time...

warmandsexy52 64M
13164 posts
5/29/2006 2:06 am

Huny you have touched my heart with this beautifully written account of true love and real loss.


warm xx

happyladychat 47F
3740 posts
5/29/2006 2:15 am

Huny Sista... you're very brave to tell your story. It's so... touching..

Whenever I apart with my lover and I ain't hear from him... I will start to imagine things. Being my lover... I'll never know if one day.. I'll ever going to see his face again. It's a very scary thought that plays constantly on my mind.

It's a good thing we're not so close as before coz... at least I don't think of him so much... at least I don't miss him so much... and at least I don't have this scary thought creeping into my mind nowadays.

Anyway... thanks for sharing... and thanks for reading my ramblings.

Hmmm... wish I can share like you, but I can never...

Make it your challenge.... turn me ON!!

free2chose2 66F

5/29/2006 2:29 am

How sad, just when you're beginning your life together. What strength you have...

Don't worry, be Happy

rm_cru1972 44M
4407 posts
5/29/2006 2:41 am

MZhuny, all I can say is thank you, for that lovely yet sad story of love,and loss. I am one of the people that it takes forever to piss me off. But If you do piss me off, look out. we were together for five years, and two of them she did everything in her power to piss me off.

SleekIcilyVarix 41M

5/29/2006 2:59 am

Sad story...yet another reminder that life is too short and unpredictable.

rm_KirkVW44m 54M
688 posts
5/29/2006 3:08 am

I missed the opportunity to tell somebody i loved them once before they passed and that person was my father. So i stand with Mzhunyhole in telling people you do love that you do and often because you just never know.

Do ya all get mad easy..are ya all the kind to go off like a firecracker??
Or does it take a whole damn lot to get your feathers ruffled?

Being angry does no good so why be i ask.. It takes alot to piss me off but if you succeed in getting me to that point then be ready for the consequences of it.

mickdevil 50M/52F
3496 posts
5/29/2006 3:18 am


MZ, mick and I always say I love you with a kiss before we leave to go anywhere.As your life has shown ya never no what your going to be dealt.I'm glad you had those 11 days of marriage,and new someone loved you,for who you were,and I 'm sure he would love you even more today for the woman you have become,because we all do!


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rm_smosmof2 67M
3240 posts
5/29/2006 3:33 am

y'know, I actually had pieced a lot of that together already. still, it was heartbreaking to read.

usually, it takes a long time to work me up to really angry, but when I'm there, it achieves a rage of insanity level.

exception is the xgf, who seems to have a knack for talking until she pisses me off, and once she hits that place, I'm back to insane. still have a lot of resentment issues about her departure, I guess, that I have no outlet for....

i think i spend too much time rattling around in my own head.

JazzDlight 59F

5/29/2006 3:48 am

Thank you for sharing your story Ms. Huny, I know exactly what you mean. My mother died 15 yrs ago and I never got the chance to say goodbye or tell her that I loved her. She had a heart attack at the local mall while I was at work and then she was in a coma for 12 hrs before she died. Now everytime I see my dad or talk to him on the phone I tell him I love him. Hugs, Jazz

ThaRealLiv 43M

5/29/2006 3:52 am

I'm addicted to resolution. I always want to see both sides win. Poppa and America. I don't want to have to choose sides. When I discovered that my father gave me the impression that he did not care about me, I realized that he did care about me. How do I explain. Let's see. I don't know. There are differnt sides. Without my stepdad, I don't know the sides well enough. He tells me nothing. HE makes me think he doesn't care and it hurts. I know he . Idon't know. if he told me he cared, then I would depend on him maybe? I don't know how he thinks. He never tells me. HE never has. He's had secrets since before I was born. HE was a soldier. He probably couldn't tell me for my own safety. Does he understand how his secrets destroy me? I don't know. Can I talk to him? I don't know. I just want to leave fishlips and my poppa to deal with their own beef. Does fishlips want to hurt me. I don't know. He hasn't yet. Why is now any different. I don't want poppa to run from the world anymore. Fishlips is from a far more powerful family. I still don't see any reason to keep me out of his. HE raised me. he tried hard. He always loved. He fucked with fishlips first, but that's only because the army fucked with him. My father took it out on fishlips, because the army was too strong for him to beat. He never should have fucked with fishlips, because the army was behind fishlips. The war started earlier. The marines were defending us, but they were destroying each other. The war should be over now, and I hope it is. But it still goes on in his mind. He pushes me away. Fishlips never contacts me. I don't know what to do.

BaronessK 52F

5/29/2006 3:56 am

There is never enough time; it doesn't matter if it's days or decades. I had almost 4 years with John Mark, 3 of which we were married. He died in July right after his birthday {1st, his 40th}, our anniversary {7th}, and my birthday {14th}. And people wonder why I think, sometimes, there is significance in numbers. His few close friends told me that he'd never been happy his entire life {he had Clinical Depression}; they said he told them all the time how happy he was that he'd found me. He was happy for 4 years out of 40. The numbers that most interest me are the ones on the clock...there's never enough time....

BadAssBlonde1 56F
4989 posts
5/29/2006 4:15 am

Thank you for sharing your story. It warmed my heart and broke it down all at the same time. I do believe that some people know when their time is near. My Sister passed on five years ago and she kept telling me, "take care of the boys like you always have" ... She went in the hospital with stomach pains and died there three days later. The oldest boy has served in Iraq and is now back home, certainly not the same boy that went in. I always wonder if I should have signed those papers to let him go into the Army and sign up to be an Airborne Ranger. You have had some terrible tragedies and I for one, think you are a strong woman for being able to share them with us. Devotion to one another is all that is needed, IMO. Folks get so hung up on what people look like that they miss what you spoke of "a heart of gold" Today, I wish you joy and wonderful memories for your family and loved ones. I can just picture in my mind a little yellow house filled with happiness and love. My best to you.

Lady Hunter / BAB

After all the sex is gone, there is the mind - Lady Hunter / BAB

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VATraveler1948 68M

5/29/2006 4:24 am

Thanks for sharing your story MzHuny.

TnWitchyWoman 56F
6852 posts
5/29/2006 4:32 am

Thank you for sharing that! I know you mentioned losing him after 11 days of marriage when you read my post, and I wondered what happened, but I didn't want to pry because I *know* talking about losing someone like that has to be on your terms...when you're ready. I wonder if Hawk knew too. There were signs he did, but he never told me, never gave me any indication but his mother told me he had an appointment with a cardiologist the next you don't go see one of those at 36 just for the sake of being entertained. I'm pretty sure he didn't tell me because he knew I lost my momma in 2001 to heart failure and he watched me fall apart and thankfully was there to put some pieces back. I'm sure he didn't want me to worry until he knew what was going on...or maybe he knew the physical part may have changed and he didn't WANT that. I do know one thing, Hawk lived every day like it was his last...something we both tried really hard to do...and I'm thankful those last few hours were spent with me. Like you, I remember that last touch, that last kiss...and I will cherish it forever.

We share a lot Mz. Huny. Things I wish we didn't have to have in common, but we do. The only comfort I can take in that is maybe if we need to talk to someone who has "been there" we'll be there for each other. I've already found another woman...actually she contacted me...that lost her lover from a heart attack. Maybe I'm here not to find someone else, but to find other's who share that same type of grief because there were days when *I* didn't want to keep going. All I wanted was to be with him...and I still have a kid at home to raise so that is NOT an option. Somehow I manage to get up breathing each morning. I can't say the pain has really lessened, I *KNOW* what I lost that day, but I may have a long time left on this earth and I've got to find a way to happiness once least a *little*.

*gives you tearful hugs* Yes, I'll be going to the cemetery today I have every week since he lay my red rose upon his marker. I wish you much Mz. Huny. Much laughter, much happiness, much lovin'!


absolutelynormal 56F
6563 posts
5/29/2006 4:39 am

((((MzHuny)))) You know I wear my heart on my sleeve. I don't get mad easily unless someone is messing with my babies (even though they're grown). I never end a conversation with either of them without saying "I love you." My parents didn't teach me that. I don't think either one of them said it the entire time I was growing up. My inlaws (I didn't say exinlaws cause I didn't divorce them! lol) taught me all that lovey dovey stuff. I didn't know how to love, they showed me. I am very sorry for your loss. Hope you have a good memorial day.

PurplePeach72 44F  
9199 posts
5/29/2006 4:46 am

BIG HUGS!Mz. Honey, Your blog is the first blog I ever read, and it is one of a handful that I read faithfully. I think that is because I see so much of my life in your's. I also lost a little brother at the age of 16, and another little boy, Logan who was only 8years old. I used babysit him, my brother had taken him and some friends to play paint ball. Another teenager t-boned them, he walked away, the other two boys in my brother's car survived, but we lost Jon & Logan to that car accident. Two months before that I lost my Great-grandmother, who was really more like my mother. She was the only constantly good person in my childhood. I hadn't spoken or seen either of them in months. I lost another close relative within 3 months, and her wisdom helped me make it through the next couple of hard years. It took me a long time to come to grips with not having said "I loved them, one last time". So I urge everyone to say what you feel, but don't lose sight of the fact that you love people and tell them so. My husband and I might have an arguement and I going to leave for awhile to cool off, we make sure we say "I love you" before I pull out of the driveway, or hang up the phone. You just don't ever know and no one is guaranteed any time other than what we have right now.
Thanks for sharing your story!
As for the anger part, I'll admit I am a firecracker in many ways, certain things just set me off. But in lots of other situations I have been told I have the patience of a saint, so I guess that's all a matter of when you catch me, what I'm doing and who you're comparing me Nothing like fence riding huh?
Love ya,
LeeAnn {=}


Djeeper1987 47M

5/29/2006 4:59 am

Life is short, living as best as we can. Whether we are with someone or not. However, you find someone with a heart of gold as you did that makes it a bonus in life.

Sad Story, and thank you for sharing it. When you got something to say, you go right out and say. Got to love ya for that.

Carpe Diem

Georgie007777 67M
419 posts
5/29/2006 5:26 am

So Sad,

Chin up, Girl

Be strong

I feel priviledged that you shared your story.


goodatpoetry2 66M
12391 posts
5/29/2006 5:30 am

What a beautiful story. Sad, but beautiful, still.
I don't handle deceit well. But except for that, I'm not too bad.
You write well. All your emotions are right out there. As it should be. Thank you.

rm_PurryKitty2 48M/49F
9753 posts
5/29/2006 5:34 am

Awww Mz Huny, I just wanna hug you right now. Sail and I had made a vow never to go to sleep angry or without saying I love you. Trust me there are many nights that we are up till the wee hours of the morning fighting, but when we finally get into that bed, we are holding each other.

I am sure TJ knew you loved him.

Purry {=}


lightswitch1963 68M/53F

5/29/2006 6:08 am

Mr light here ..we'll blog twice I told Mrs Light about this blog. She'll want to respond also..Me I lost a few too many buddies in a past war..Never in the family except for a brother kill on the job.
Mrs Light kisses me ever time she walks out the door, my mannly mannly kicks in and wonder why she ALWAYS has to do that..Thanks to you I'LL NEVER ASK WHY BUT STORE EACH ONE IN MY HEAD. If ever needed i'll draw one memeory out each day. One day without Mrs light would truely be a day without life. Thanks again We all can learn thr others eyes.....Mr light

Christabel168 44F

5/29/2006 7:00 am

bet he still does that to
doesn't he...?
rush in the house
'on the edge of a breeze'
kissing your cheek
and letting you know

"Baby I'm still on my knees"

exoticeyes1000 55F

5/29/2006 7:01 am

Wow what a story..!
You are such a strong shows in your writing everyday
I'm glad that you've been able to accept what life throws @ U and continue to share the "TRUE You" with the World!....that takes a lot of courage...and that you do have!
You rock girl!
Happy Memorial Day!...I'll leave you with these special thoughts...!

"When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don't you quit.
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint on the clouds of doubt,
And you can never tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems afar.
So, stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things go wrong that you mustn't quit.

RevJoseyWales 69M/66F
14393 posts
5/29/2006 7:08 am

You were loved. That's the important thing, and something no one can ever take away.

AS for me, certain things will set me off quicker than anything, others will take a long time before I blow. Joe

"McVeigh had the right idea, wrong address."

"This ain't Dodge City, and you ain't Bill Hickok."

rm_Shortdogg65 51M
672 posts
5/29/2006 7:51 am

I'm somewhere in the middle. And thanks for the visit to my blog. Wish I had your beautiful dark complexion. Might save me from burning annually. Shortdogg

pillowtalk4Uonly 58F
292 posts
5/29/2006 7:58 am

{{ Big Hugs to Ya Mz Hunny }} Thanx for sharing your touching story with us. I lost the love of my life, my true soulmate 8 years ago. The last thing my late husband said to me was "I'll see you on the other side Lambkin" ... I am So much looking forward to the day that happenes. But until then we all do need remember to show kindness and love to each other each and every chance we get.

Love & Peace to You ...

rm_imtheone42 74M
485 posts
5/29/2006 8:01 am

Thanks for sharing your story. I`m wiping the tears from my eyes as I type. You are right this was originally a day to remember those who died fighting for our country but I think it is important to remember our loved ones who have left us. At my age it seems that most of the people who were adults when I was a kid are gone. So many of them meant so much to me and I miss them all but that is the way life is. Now my kids and grandkids mean just as much and I need to tell them often how much I love them.

angelofmercy5 58F
17881 posts
5/29/2006 8:04 am

Thanks Mzhuny for telling this sweet, sad story. And for reminding us that life is short....and none of us are promised a tomorrow. My hubby has been working real hard lately....and he has been grumpy. My grandson was telling us that Pop pop is always grumpy....and so I asked him "Is that how you want him to remember you?" He is really trying hard now not to lose his cool.


5/29/2006 8:08 am

Big hugs huny! Sorry ya got blues! {=}

just a squirrel trying to get a nut

OboesHonedIambs 62F

5/29/2006 8:20 am

Aww, MsHuny, thats some damn hard luck and I'm sorry about your brothers, your parents and your dear TJ. How you managed to some out of all that to do all that you do is inspiring beyond words.

To answer your question, it takes a lot to set me off. I don't like fighting and I don't like harsh words. Even though we're not having sex, DH & I still hug and we always say I love you. When he's away, I miss our night time lights out routine which includes just a wee blessing.

Instant Human -- Just Add Coffee

Twister2bed 47M
617 posts
5/29/2006 8:53 am

Thanks for sharing your story, very sad I'm glad you had that last hug and kiss. No one knows when their ticket is going to get punched.
So you story has some real meaning.

As to the question... No it takes alot to get me to the boiling point but once its done its over I walk and never look back no second chances no second talks.

rm_DaphneR 58F
7938 posts
5/29/2006 9:00 am

Hugs woman.

Have tongue, will use it. Repeatedly.

ohsodelicious 57F
1922 posts
5/29/2006 9:22 am

huny...That was such a touching story...Thanks for sharing an OhSomemorable part of yourself.
It takes a lot to get me angry...but when I do become angry I still try to maintain...I learned the hard way what can happen when anger takes over...and it is not pleasant.


vidiohunter 51M

5/29/2006 9:48 am

thats two realy sad ,but oh so true life storys that I have read this week of love and loss.

as to yer question ,I cant remember the last time I got realy mad,about any thing .Its just not worth it,say yer peice and let it rest ,thats my way.

about my new profile pic. thats your back yard in the distance,shot from my back yard,on top of a forest service lookout tower,on top of top of frozen head, glad the forest cops didnt catch me..heh he...[smiles wickedly]

oldude1946 70M

5/29/2006 9:53 am

A man like that is hard to find, if you find one keep him as long as you can.

I guess I'm an easy going man.

CastsAetasPoets 51F

5/29/2006 10:06 am

Well, I am in tears again. What a beautiful story. You have loved and lost so many and yet you are still here surviving. What a strong woman you are. Thank you for giving to all of us.

lightswitch1963 68M/53F

5/29/2006 10:13 am

Hi Hun,
You made me cry, and I don't cry. I kiss my husband every time I leave, because you never know. It might be the last kiss, and nobody wants to go through life with, "If I just had one last kiss." Thank you so much for sharing. My father died when I was young, and I was not permitted a good-bye.

NSAAddict 42F

5/29/2006 10:20 am

Such a sad and moving story MzHuny, with an incredibly good point to share. Thank you and hugs as you remember and grieve for your loss

qship52 63M

5/29/2006 10:42 am

I'm glad you got that last kiss. I'm glad that you have those graves to go visit too.

Others have said here that you should not pass up the opportunities to tell those you love that you love them. Life is short, and you don't know when you, or they, will go. I lost my father when his plane disappeared in Alaska, and I have regrets over not telling him enough how I felt about him. I also have no grave to visit, and that makes it harder.

I remember all my lost relatives and friends on Memorial Day.

a123rat 49M
1112 posts
5/29/2006 10:43 am

It isn't fair that those who love soo much should be taken so soon.
I'm sure he knew that you loved him.
We all should be thankful for those who touch our lives, Thank you.
Be sweet, aRat.

twirly_girl 47F

5/29/2006 10:53 am

I always kinda figure that even if people are only in
your life a short while, there is usually a reason why.
Looks like his reason taught you wonderful things.

*I don't get mad easy.


imLadyBambi 58M/50F

5/29/2006 11:06 am


I'm so sorry that you had to go through that.

To tell you the truth I doubt if he did feel the explosion of his heart.It just seems like it would have happened so fast that he probably didn't know what happened.So i truly believe that it was painless.So try not to think about that.O.K..

Mr.Bambi and I never even argue but, we would never leave one another mad or upset.
Lady Bambi

tiyannah 47T

5/29/2006 11:14 am


bicajunpeach32 60M/43F
1 post
5/29/2006 11:23 am

Mzhunnyhole I really liked your blog it really made me sit down and think about alot of things. I am so sorry that you lost your hubby like that and I know it was hard. please keep me posted on how you are doing thanks

hugggggggggsssss and kissesssssss

love ya my friend

pretzel_logic2 40M
31 posts
5/29/2006 11:30 am

Whatever I did in the past, is the past. Thanks mzhunyhole and anyone that happy, knew you loved him.

digdug41 49M

5/29/2006 12:32 pm

You gotta really work on my reserve nerve before I spazz on you other than that I am a mild kinna guy. ya always got something for us here huny thats why we luv ya so much kisses to you

roaming the cyber streets of blogland

sexymamma662003 31F

5/29/2006 1:11 pm

i wanted to tel you about this story i herd from a girls mother. 2 days before a womens daughter died her daughter wrote a goodbye letter and dated it. 2 days later she was in a horrific car accedant.
the letter told her moother how much she loved her and that everything would be ok becouse she knew that her time on earth wasnt ment to be very long. she was 13. she tucked the letter into her drawer were she knew her mother would find it. a few of her words were know that i love you and that i didnt suffer in any way. and that i am in a better place and we will see each other again some day.

from what i read about your late husband i have the feeling he knew that his time was short. and that he needed one last goodbye before he left. sherish it always some of us are never able to say good bye.


alchemistz9 56M

5/29/2006 1:23 pm

Hi hunyhole,

What can I say? you're so so right. I lost my dad suddenly when I was a kid and didn't get to say goodbye. Took me another 20 to do it right and now it's all back with me as I read your story...

goodatpoetry2 66M
12391 posts
5/29/2006 1:37 pm

Hey huny?,
I already posted.
But how come you always go to that other place?
What are you doing?

TTigerAtty 62M

5/29/2006 2:21 pm

A poignant real life story, MzHuny! So glad you shared it! I tell my daughter I love her everytime I see her. Things can happen so quickly! God bless you and yours on this Memorial Day!

spacecadet561 59M

5/29/2006 2:40 pm

It sounds like you had a very good 11 days that should have been far longer. Age 28 is too young for anyone to go, for any reason. It sounds like TJ had a good heart in the loving sense, but not in the longevity sense. I'm glad you've managed to hold onto that goodness, and grateful that you share it with us here in blogland. Brave heart, woman.


JoLeeS 40F

5/29/2006 3:16 pm

Awww.. Mz... i am sorry.... My mom was in a bad wreck in 1984(pronounced dead at the scene, but woke up almost an hour of being clinically dead...and pregnant with my brother)... I remember the last thing ZI said to her before she left with her best friend(who did die)... I told her I hated her and I hoped she died....... I was 9, but I was certain it happened becuase of what I said...... Now I always kiss and hug and tell everyone before I leave or when they leave... just in case I don't see them again.....

Looking4sex44240 54F

5/29/2006 4:23 pm

Thank you for sharing your story with me, I'm so sorry that happened to you.

rm_leelou6233 61F

5/29/2006 4:25 pm

my heart aches for you. you never know what tomorow brings- and its always brought home on memorial day. true love is precious

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5/29/2006 4:43 pm

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frbnkslady 48F
6183 posts
5/29/2006 6:09 pm

I cried reading this the first time you posted about this and I am crying now. Thank you. T


boydcounty 67M

5/29/2006 7:41 pm

The way you tell your story is inspiring. The way you weave words in such a brutally honest fashion makes the reader feel like they are living the event with you. It makes us examine our own lives through your eyes. That is a gift. Your story makes me think of my sister and the last time I saw before her death. It was on Memorial Day. We shared a moment that is to this date the most intense moment I have ever shared with another person. I was kneeling by the couch she was sitting on and looked into her big beautiful blue eyes. She squeezed my hand. Then she smiled. It was her last smile. She had cancer and lived only two more days. She died on June 2, the day after her 40th birthday.[/


kelly402005 52F

5/29/2006 8:04 pm

OMG.......... I'm telling you, if it were something like that, I would be stupid and would want to know the facts.
Not want to hear, "family of the deceased".... I probably wouldn't even hear it....... to tell you the truth.

Geez, you've been through some shit, huh............

Someone has blessed you................

I luv ya girl, "keep it real". It's all good.

Alene, your friend. Period.
~~ and I think I've had it bad......... pshhhhhhhh........
What I've been through isn't anything.
You're one tough chick......... Take pride in that.

rm_panshv 54M
24 posts
5/29/2006 8:07 pm

wow thanks so much for sharing that.what a wonderful gift you got from that experince.we should all be so lucky to have someone that cares so much about us.that othertings truly dont matter.hope to chat on line some time oh bye the way love the sign! anyway take care and enjoy life

mustang65695 57M
54 posts
5/29/2006 8:09 pm

I believe the soul knows when we are to leave this world, which allowed him to come back
and see you one last time. I am sure he wil be the first too greet you when it's your time to crossover.

meerkittykat 42F

5/29/2006 9:58 pm

what beautiful words...thanks for blessing us.

No, it takes a lot to get me riled. My mom's brother died in a car accident right after they'd had a terrible fight, and she has never forgiven herself. That is one of the many lessons she taught me. Life is too short, so love the one you're with.

rm_shannee2006 52F
3355 posts
5/30/2006 12:36 pm

You had a hell of a guy there. I'm glad that you got those days together and that last kiss. Thanks for the story and for reminding all of us about how to love right.

Yup...this juiciness is from me....


nontoxicmale 64M

5/30/2006 2:21 pm

I cried on reading this. Kinda relived it for a little. As important as it is to read things like this, it is just as important to write it. It has been part of what has molded you. Given you strength. Given you compassion. Maybe it is part of what gives you that magnificent smile, too. An appreciation for all of lifes adventures both high and low.

rm_gata11459 57F
10597 posts
5/30/2006 8:38 pm

no ruffles, no frills, just honest, you write the way you talk.. and you have an incredible effect, a beautiful story, thank you, and im sorry for your loss, it was a great one xoxo

Peace xxx K

rm_goddess1946 105F
13518 posts
5/31/2006 5:38 pm

I'm a kisser and a hugger..always have been...
and appreciate your telling your story. Thank you.
I think you should write a book, MzHuny. Seriously.

I'm glad you had that last kiss too and eleven days with
someone who really loves you is better than years with
someone who mistreats you...better than anything.

I love you, Mz Huny... Goddess

Just a little food for thought.............
If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you...

peaches_delite4u 36T
57 posts
6/11/2006 7:18 pm

Ty ms.hunny I'm so glad I read this blog I am the type of person who get's pissed real easy I have the most incredible man in my life but I know for a fact I take that for granted but not any more I'm always gonna say I love u know matter what, I will always say thank you and please and let him know how much I love him thanks to you.

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