rm_miniaxis 36F
241 posts
6/7/2006 8:16 pm

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6/8/2006 8:24 pm


Thinking, thinking, thinking. I am always thinking about something, I can’t seem to stop.
All this thinking is probably why I have woken up with a headache for the last two mornings. The kind of headache that gets progressively worse as the day wears on. Going from a dull ache in the back of my head to feeling like my head has been placed in a vice. Some may call it a migraine others a cluster headache, me a pain in my arse.
So in order to prevent my headaches I need to stop thinking about all the “what if’s” and the “should do’s” that are constantly going on in my head. I read somewhere that there are people who live their lives in their heads thinking about what might be instead of actually living their lives. I have a super active social life, I have plans for the entire long weekend (here in Australia) so I’m not living that in my head; it seems that I live my personal life in a fantasy world. I over think situations and then think about what might happen instead of just letting things happen. I understand that it is my defence mechanism and that I need to break my pattern of creating my own internal dramas. But that is easier said than done, once a thinker always a thinker and unfortunately it has become destructive.

So as I sit here writing a dialogue about thinking I am actually thinking about my weekend and what I need to do to not over think whatever situation might arise.
I like things planned and I like to know what I am doing when I am doing it, I wouldn’t say that I am spontaneous.
I’m not a spur of the moment girl; I like to have forward knowledge of what’s expected and what I will be doing. I’m not big on surprises. I like to know what is going on.
I like to know how deep the water is before I dive in.

rm_heyhowru 35M

6/8/2006 2:12 am

nice blog

slo2600 40M
120 posts
6/8/2006 3:15 pm

Yeah, I'm somewhat similar in that respect. Sometimes I've just got too much stuff on my mind to lead my life effectively, and it's hard to learn to set some of that stuff aside long enough to get on with the immediate life that's before you.

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