Second night of no sleep for me...again!  

rm_metalmama69 42F
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12/17/2005 8:55 pm

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Second night of no sleep for me...again!


Here we go again, no sleep and it is starting to take it's toll. That is not entirely accurate, I slept for a little less than 2 hours last night, which is much better than tonite is shaping up to be. I've tried it all, pills, alcohol, narcotics, herbal supplements, meditation, double sessions in my hot tub, even watching c-span! What is next, hypnosis? LOL! Actually, that doesn't sound half bad right about now, I'd love to be able to erase a few nasty demons that have invaded my mind lately. I suppose we all have bad days, some being worse than others. Some events rip your heart to shreds and leave scars on your soul and other events put a permanent smile on your face, warming your heart. The key is to focus on the positive for the positive always defeats the negative. That is easy to say, but much harder to do! Even the strongest person can easily be brought to their knees. I love to be on my knees, but damn!!! Only under different circumstances, heheheh! But, somewhere, somehow in the few words I have put here in my blog tonite I have learned a valuable lesson. The lesson is that letting yourself be controlled by negativity only breeds more negativity, and it snowballs quickly. It is easy to get lost in depression, but much harder to fight against those demons I spoke of. Depression and negativity are absolute second best and I will NEVER again settle for second best in any aspect of my life, and I stand second best to no one. I am far too good, far too strong, far too special, far too hot, and I love myself far too much for that! So, at this very moment I am picking myself up off the floor, dusting off my cute little ass, lifting my chin to the stars in the sky and moving onward and upward. Once again my eyes sparkle and my lips smile and my heart warms to the promise of what tomorrow will bring. For every new day is filled with promise. Every new day is what you make of it, not what others make of it for you, because the key to happiness is inside your own soul and nobody but me can open that door. And that is exactly what I shall do, I will blow the hinges right off that door! True happiness and fullfillment lie within and are mine for the taking, and upon doing so those that surround me shall reap the rewards, for I fully intend to make the ones who are special to my heart blissfully happy for all eternity and their laughter and smiles will be my reward!


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