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As Promised my BDSM Experiences - So Far
As Promised my BDSM Experiences - So Far
Well as promised this Blog will mainly cover my experiences of BDSM. I'll admit from the start that I'm still very new to the BDSM Lifestyle but have leaned a lot from Alt.com and also Informed Consent - even met some very nice people along the way.
I guess it's best to start at the beginning and so my first experience was when I was tied to a bed by my Girlfriend and she had her wicked way with me. It was certainly horny and yet liberating at the same time the thought of a woman being in total control of me - sadly we split soon after.
The above happened in the late 1980's I suppose and then nothing really happened for a few years until I stumbled onto Electro Torture - an amazing feeling and one I still indulge in today.
Which brings us nicely to the current situation - well almost. Last year I joined Adult Friend Finders looking for a bit of fun and even a possible relationship and to be honest I never really had any luck and felt as if I didn't really fit in - but that was probably due to lack of effort on my part. However, one day I took a look at Alt.com and realized that this type of thing was much more to my liking.
When I joined Alt I showed my role as being submissive straight away - well I could never be Dominant and I also knew that there was a Submissive side to me. To start with I really wasn't getting much joy on that site either but the other members pointed me in the right direction and I'm having a fantastic time - I'm even on the verge of getting involved in a relationship with someone that is seriously into BDSM Play.
I'm going to make a confession here and say that I've actually visited a Pro-Domme a couple of times - purely for the experience you understand, well it's no point getting into a BDSM relationship and the deciding that you don't like it after all.
When I first had a session with the Pro-Domme I was very nervous and to be honest she decided not to tie me up and was very easy on me - except for the Nipple Clamps (they hurt like hell) but I did enjoy them and they left my Nipples nice and sensitive for days. I have to say that I left her Dungeon feeling really high that day.
For the latest visit I was much more relaxed (but still a bit nervous) and this gave the Pro-Domme a chance to tie me up and play harder - God she can certainly Flog you hard and in fact I do have a few bruises today. Every Muscle aches in my body, my Nipples are tender again - yes I feel wonderful.
Some members on this site will look at the above and wonder how anyone could get any enjoyment from the pain of flogging, genital Torture or indeed nipple Torture and I guess it's not an easy one to answer. For me I would say that most of the enjoyment comes from the endorphin rush, yet at the same time to get the whole feeling I have to feel totally submissive as well - and that makes for a truly amazing experience.
This is going to sound like an after thought, but do also get a lot of pleasure from pleasing my Domme - okay a Pro at the moment but when I find My Non Pro-Domme (and it looks as if I might have) then I will ensure that I please her.
8/4/2006 5:11 am
I suppose it's giving someone the total control and letting all your guards down so that ALL of your body, spirit and mind free from all trappings of society. I'm a submissive too and love to be told what to do - although still vanilla in the bdsm world! Go with the flow, try new things even if they scare you and above all be true to yourself!|
8/4/2006 6:01 am
Hi cutechubby8, thanks for your comments on this one and it's always nice to hear from another submissive.|
Yes I guess your right it is about giving someone total control over you and probably why I've been looking for a relationship with someone based on BDSM - although the BDSM Play is also very important.
Your certainly right about trying new things even if they scare you - the first time I met the Pro-Domme for a session I was shaking because I was so scared but I'm glad that I went ahead with it.