All the things you are NOT supposed to say  

rm_mangomami2 40F
415 posts
8/9/2006 10:33 pm

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8/15/2006 8:55 pm

All the things you are NOT supposed to say


I have a huge list at this point in the spirit of playing nice .

But if someone keeps baiting you what's a girl to do ?

My mama didn't raise no punk , but she did raise a lady .............when do you let it go and when do you speak up ?

Literally the legs have been knocked out from under me , so I find myself timid , something I have never been .
I have lost a lot so I feel like I have nothing to fight back with . All the damn trophies , money , career accomplishments don't do anything for me right at this moment . All it shows is WHAT I WAS !So all my conversations are on the light side , non-sensical bullshit . It keeps me from being my volitile self , but then that's not the real me .

Tell me , if you lost everything you once called YOURS , how do you think it would change you ?

warmandsexy52 64M
13164 posts
8/10/2006 4:06 am

Mango, this is such a brave and challenging post. In all honesty any answer would be so superficial as I'm sure that the reality and its effects are simply beyond my comprehension. I think you are a remarkable woman to express as you do in your blogging. Because I free-fly the loss of the use of my legs would be devastating on that front alone, and that is probably the least of my problems. {=}

warm xx


ticktock500 43M

8/10/2006 7:08 am

bitter
whiny
broken
sad
lonely
defeated
hopeless
lost
(and it wasn't even everything i lost)


GuyWhoListens2u 56M
325 posts
8/10/2006 2:34 pm

Very few poeple change who they are deep inside, but the bad experiences tend to make you more careful about who you open yourself up to.


rm_mangomami2 40F
364 posts
8/10/2006 10:18 pm

warmandsexy - yes it does put things into a certain type of perspective

ticktock- above all don't be bitter , be hurt , be sad , but don't get stuck in bitter

guywholistens - as always I have to be different , It has made me more open , more honest , what do I have to lose ??? Not a thing ......

thadood- hard to kick ass with wobbly legs but that won't stop me from trying


loadeddice05 44M

8/10/2006 11:38 pm

Yeah!! We all feel lost sometimes??? An even greater accomplishment, is too keep loving yourself!! Cause ultimately it's all you have!!


GuyWhoListens2u 56M
325 posts
8/11/2006 2:04 pm

Mango,

You are probably making the right call. When I took time to think about it, it seems from what I know about you, your decision fits. Interesting reaction.

You are the person I have the most trouble understanding. Not saying that's bad... just different. I do like how you think, but it suprises me almost every time.


rm_mangomami2 40F
364 posts
8/11/2006 9:08 pm

Dice- thank you , u are too sweet

spunky - I can't wait to find the good in this ....

Guywholistens - yes I am better when I maintain decorum . I have always known I think very differently from other people and women, most definately !! I have always been of the opinion that "great" minds do not think alike , simple minds think alike ! At least that's what I tell myself when I find myself in disagreement with folks ! P.S. why did you delete your blog ?


GuyWhoListens2u 56M
325 posts
8/13/2006 5:30 pm

Mango,

"Great minds do not think alike" ... very clever. I like it
Oh wait... I mean, I totally disagree with you..
crap..! that doesn't work either.

When I generate 200 points again, I will tell you the answer to your PS question in an e-mail.


rm_mangomami2 40F
364 posts
8/13/2006 10:15 pm

Guywholistens- ok ..............


jlr774 43M
157 posts
8/14/2006 9:20 pm

Mango, I keep waiting for you to realize what
you haven't lost.


rm_mangomami2 40F
364 posts
8/15/2006 8:55 pm

jlr - I am here , I am still here ..... trying to figure out whats next


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