I don't know anything but my name...  

rm_lotsahot4u 45F
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1/22/2006 6:35 pm

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3/5/2006 9:27 pm

I don't know anything but my name...


Which is easier knowing what you want or knowing what you don't want? I thought i had it figured out. The only thing I know for sure is I want sex. How hard could it possibly be to find someone to have sex with? Okay so I meet this man seems nice as can be. Takes me out to dinner, calls to see how my day went. Wants to make plans in advance. And this is all great. But...I have absolutely no physical attraction to the guy at all. Make no mistake I'm straight up. He asked after the second meeting how did i feel about him? Of course he shared his feelings first, how great it is to connect with someone, he thinks I'm a great person, he sees a long future for us. Now, personally I feel this was definitely a passive aggressive way of trying to control the moment. However, he knew from the jump I tell it like it is. I told him I can see us hanging out in a friends only way. That I did not feel a sexual spark, and yes I said sexual so there was no mistake. He then proceeds to go further as if he is pleading his case to a jury. I should give it time get to know him better spend more time with him. I tell him we can still hang out but it won't go anywhere. So he continues to take me out to dinner... movies, hey free movie and dinner. That's alright...Not, so We stop for drinks, I'm feeling good heading home thanking him give him hug next thing i know i have this attempt of a tongue trying to be forced in my mouth. Keep in mind I'm not a little person and this guy is probably only an inch taller than me and I outweigh him by a good 40lbs. He really should have thought a little more on that action . Needless to say I don't see any free movies or dinners from him in the future. ...these blogs are so cathartic...I started out just trying to figure out why I couldn't have just gone ahead and screwed this guy...I mean I want sex so why not..but now after typing up the events dealing with him, I figure something in my subconscious must have sensed this guy was a jerk undercover of a nice guy. Anyways back to my original question. Which is easier knowing what you want or what you don't want? Only thing I do know for sure... is my name

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